Thursday, March 15, 2007

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00:33

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

ah ah!

life's been awesome for me man. nothing could have been better. i've got not bad but at least good for now results for my common tests and i didn't fail any! yay (don't need to see principal) and i got to see my teacher's face! when i asked her, mam did i fail anything? she shook her head and had this look of "displeasement" oh well. guess not many people can be pleased. at least i am!

services these weeks has been great and the prayer meeting yesterday was awesome, and i really mean awesome. it was really really great and wow. pst flew back JUST to have this prayer meeting, and it was REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY AWESOME. those who weren't there, well. next time you'll have more chances! heh. this week we've got Sy Rogers
and i know and i know and i know it'll be great, and i'm failing in my reaching out.. but i shall not lose hope. circumstances are really weird, i get them to go out after school with me, and either something crops up, or they can't make it. so depressing.

but yeah, soon!!!!! :D i really love this song called " Above All " by Hillsong.. :D

above all powers
above all kings
above all nature
and all created things

above all wisdom
and all the ways of man
you were there
before the world began

above all kingdoms
above all thrones
above all wonders
the world has ever known

above all wealth
and treasures of the earth
there's no way to measure
what You're worth

crucified, laid behind a stone
You live to die, rejected and alone
like a rose, trampled on the ground
You took the fall, and thought of me
ABOVE ALL!

20:07

Sunday, February 11, 2007

i liked my week.
nothing really special happened.
and i like service today and cell group on friday.
all in all, i think it's the best week i've ever had for a long time.


TOMORROW PRAYER MEETING. IT'S BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I HAD ONE. i can't wait for 2007 to be over, stress year. but i'm gonna make it the best year yet, because with stress and difficulties, i think it's the only times when i can strengthen with God and all. so ya, i should make the best out of this year, and be really nice to elaine low and i mean really nice, stop giving problems and crap. even though i really think she's quite retarded, and she can't understand i really need the toilet sometimes and i might just wet myself in class. saddddddd.

well. after seeing my seniors get their results and all so happy, im determined to study hard as well. okay, so i'm gonna write out all my aims and my visions and what im gonna get! I'm gonna get lower than 18 for L1R5, lower than 15 for L1R4. and get into Ngee Ann Poly, where im gonna take up my beloved unicycling and computer engineering for my course! That's what im gonna do. So this are what my scores are gonna be like when i get it back at the start of next year!
English - B4
Chinese - B3
E Maths - A1
A Maths - A2
Comb Humans - B3
Comb Science - A2
That's what im aiming for. and i will do it. doesn't really seem like a tall order, because my Father is the source and creator of all the subjects, so why can't i get them if i sow really hard! :D

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01:15

Monday, January 29, 2007

heh fellow ppl. i've broken my no-sickness record. again.

it's so sad! well, to fill up on what's happening to me, and what happened. cell group was really great, continued on what was said last week. then service, couldn't go on our main one because i had to meet the principal with my parents. i think it's a really encouraging meeting. belinda charles is actually really mature, and her command of english is good. i used to think she was immature because of her constant shouting at us innocent and angelic students. haha.

then on sunday. ooo i liked the service. Pastor AR Bernard is really good in his speaking. at first i found it rather chimded. but after he explained more indept, i could understand it. and whoa, like a cloud lifted from my mind, then after that i could catch all he was saying. partly because i wasn't paying much attention to my surroundings and my notebook. usually i'll be so into copying everything and anything and also distracted by other people's sudden movements that i'll not concentrate on what the speaker is saying, and then i'll get really annoyed. i found it funny when pastor Bernard called the people who rubbed the white board his 'team'. that was rather funny. he's like ' where's my team? ' and 2 people comes up and rubs the board. haha.

after that evaluation. *grinz* still need to work on my strumming though..
yeah that's about it. and im still sick. headaches getting from bad to worse, and my cough is like, making my headache painful. ah well. can't wait for the week to be over and NEXT WEEK'S SEVICE IS GONNA ROCK YOU ALL UPSIDE DOWN LEFT RIGHT WEEEEEEE.

16:09

Sunday, January 21, 2007

dear bloggy, i think im really tired and im really lazy to write on you. but i will because i find it better to think after i've written my whole day down here. and it sets my mind clearer as well. so even when im lazy, i shall still blog, so dear bloggy, you won't rot and become unupdated. because you've got such a great owner!


service was great!! cultural mandate III. i think these 3 sermons have blessed me greatly! and i'm finally thought through what i wanna be. last time i used the guitar only for praise, worship and mainly christian songs. and my dad always said i was boring. but now im playing more secular songs. (which gets me into a better spot when i want a new guitar from my dad!) heh heh. i guess now that the weekends gonna be over, school's gonna be back again. but now im gonna go back with a different mindset! im gonna go back to impact and to take the lead from other people, because if i get led by them, what's the point of saying i'm God's child!?

any other person can be leaders, but it is us, us that have God's anointing and we are the ones who are gonna impact the world, change the world, and finally at the end, everyone's saved and Jesus comes back to judge! for me, yes, i have sinned for the past 2 weeks, but i really want to be forgiven, and really follow in Jesus's footsteps. i don't want to be called a sinner when Jesus comes back. i want to be with Him! i want to be in His prescence. i will be a good boy, i will bless my enemies, i will love those who hate me and want to whack me up. i shall not be so detestable in the things that i do. and i will love God more and more everyday!!!!!!

SCHOOL HERE I COME.
(doubt im gonna blog for the next week)

00:06

Friday, January 19, 2007

awriiiiiiiiiiight!
cell group later.


came home to shower and blog before i left. ngee ann poly is kinda cool. aww, i didn't get to try the unicycling. if i get into ngee ann, im gonna join unicycling. COOL LOR. :D school was bad today, 4 periods of free time, and then after that was nonsensical time in the chemistry lab. everyone wasting the chemicals and doing nonsense and ending up copying each other's recordings. hah.

ALRIGHT. CELL GROUP HERE I COME

16:51

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

hee, cell group tomorrow!

excited, can't wait. hmm, i doubt i can really spend time with john.. got chinese and then chemistry remedials tomorrow.. wah, today the reflection class (detention) really bo liao.. well, our detention's called reflection class because our school wants to be ' special ' i think.. call all the funny funny names. bleah. anyway, i was late by 40 minutes, so i was supposed to leave at 4:40pm.. in the end, the prefects let me off at 3:15pm. i guess it was because they didn't wanna wait as well. haha!! hmm.. basketball seems rather much more fun right now.. getting much more of the interest in it..

i guess, homework's getting more and more, and yeah, the teachers are more pressurized and strict to us. hah, i had to greet my teacher 20 times because i sat down too early (which i lost my balance la!) hmm, i'm enjoying my lessons though. can't wait for tomorrow to be over, then i can go for my cell group meeting yay. it's been long.

o level.
o level.
o level.
o level.
stress has arrived. "be prepared"

17:06

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

weeeeeeeee, school's pretty much boring.

my class sucks, 4s1 sucks, totally no unity. can't blame them, all from different classes and got different small cliques. how lame, i think cliques are like, for girls? it's quite gay to have a clique in our school, especially most of my school is rather gay. hah.

well, nothing much to say, just that homework's piling more and more, parents are giving me more pep-talks and giving me more challenges. i'd rather they just ask me how i am and tell me something encouraging, instead of ' IF YOU DON'T DO WELL YOU'RE GONNA FAIL AND STAY BACK ONE MORE YEAR, SUCH A WASTE TO STAY BACK ' or ' FINE LA, SHOW ME WITH YOUR RESULTS ' so un-encouraging right? sounds as if they wanna put me down. they should be like " You can do it " or " Keep up your good work " I figure parents are quite tactless, not like our teachers!
oh well (:

21:37

Sunday, January 14, 2007

i think im done right about...... now!


heh, finally changed the stupid blogskin, which took sooooooo long to load! well, my dedications to all my friends will be up rather soon. it was supposed to be done before 2007 began, to thank everyone for their help and concern for the past years. today was a great service man! if you made it, i hope it blessed you tremendously, if you didn't, then too bad, maybe next time. :D

pastor Tan's message was really interesting. all the points made up into "SINGAPOREAN" and i didn't realise. what a great preacher! so interesting and funny. hmm.. if i get into a poly/jc with cca's i'll probably take up track, IT'S SO FUN TO RUN man. i didn't realise that until junwei and i went running 2.4 everyday after school. it was rather fun. actually, it was really fun. okay.. then maybe i'll take up basketball as well. i think it's better if we train up rather than just play for fun and lose to people who're stuck up.

delirious was good! i don't know where to get the video for "What a friend i've found" the plucking version is really good! and i want to learn it, it's really soothing and it brings calmness, seriously. guess i haven't been spending time with the cell. bleh. come home by 9. that's worse than quarantine! i might have SARS. you never know. actually, i sort of miss SARS. i like to see adults running here and there frantic over such things while we students just sit around and smile. and even when there's bird flu we still eat chicken rice and smile. it's just so funny.

*NEW* carpet head.
How to get? SIMPLE.
#1. Shave your head
#2. Lift your hand
#3. Touch your head
WHOA. feels good donnit? (: there we go.

01:58

Friday, January 12, 2007

whoa.


today, was sort of a weird day. rained non-stop. it's still raining now la. after school, took a ride from stanley's van then outside to the busstop -.-' then walked over to macs to meet nicholas. and guess what, my dear smelly sister, gracie was there to see my new botak hairstyle. how queer. then went sightseeing in my boring school, then to the primary school. gracie's really un-friendly :D never say hi to the teachers. well, i think i'll be unfriendly as well if i got dragged to someone else's school to meet other teachers.

then after that, supposed to go to some bbq at east coast with nick and kenson, but then, aiya very late liao, then cannot go. sad sad. so now im at home playing my guitar, being bored. BUT HEYYYY, SERVICE TOMORROW, and monday 1026 meeting up again. how nice. michelle better go sia, or else i stuff ice-cream at her again. then she'll rub it up and down her nose. (errr, private joke) seems like the weeks' ahead are gonna be "great" remedials after remedials, homework and MORE homework wow, how nice.. but really, this is getting to me, im getting more and more tired each day. that's so sad!!!

* i shall hold off till my hair's grown back, then you'll all SEE! * mwahhahaha.

" From now on, I am going to grab the good times with both arms. I am going to walk outside and feel the sun on my face and learn to laugh, really laugh again. Most of all, I'm going to take the love that comes my way and hold on to it for dear life. Sometimes, we don't need new scenery, just new eyes. I will also praise God each and every single day for everything He's done in my life "

- yes and amen to it!

19:21

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

homework!!!


yes folks, it's starting..
homework is piling more and more each day.
*sigh. frankly, the school is wanting to work us to death one day! hahaha, i guess it's more or less more stress than last year. you know, i think our year is the MOST SLACK year for sec 4's la! you know, the past few years, in january, students already study and mug like nobody's business and we guys are still slacking, having fun, joking around in class. what a joke.

and our level is known for doing last-minute studying! :)
how nice right? ah well. yay, phone speaker finally fixed.
although the guy had a shifty look, like he was gonna run away with my money. but he didn't :D
i noticed that during school days, i've got less things to blog about! unless i blog about how good a boy i am in school. yes yes.. but i shan't tell everyone so much. i'll just say, im good! O:D

service in 3 days! i can go, dad said, but i have to be home by 9.. so i can't fellowship. zz. ah well, strict times come with strict measures. dad's already asking me why i haven't done my 5 hour study a day. i mean, c'mon crazy!!!! not even exam period. and the good news is i've started studying, just not 5 hours a day. hope i get the motivation to do more, rather than play.

ta~

22:33

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

no work done. :@

18:05

Monday, January 08, 2007

hiii!

i just want to say im a happy person with not much cares in the world. and im really ridiculously sad that i don't care much, because it's my O level year! hah, by the way. weiyang rubbed my head and called me 'guang tou' which means shiny head or something like that, and i did something and called him 'dua neh bu' haha!!!! what a joker man, my class chairman. he's so big size he's a bigger version of a teddy bear. so fun to jump on him. i used to jump on him and get him to bring me to the class.

on the way home, i was thinking. it's not THAT bad to like a girl. you know, they're really influential when we like them. okay example. let's say you like this girl and you're a smoker and you like to litter. then the girl says in front of you; unaware of your liking. she says ' i hate people who smoke and litter, i mean why hurt yourself and why throw things on the floor when there're so many dustbins ' then you would be like ' i must change my ways ' and you'll probably stop smoking very soon, and trying to not litter. hahaha, from what i think, most of the time when guys suddenly change to be a saint is when they like a saintly girl. hahaha.

my dad's cooking an awesome dinner. too bad im not really hungry and i've just had 2 hours of basketball that im too tired to eat. or else my parents can have the lion's share. :DDDDDD i loooooooooooove food!!! there's this saying ' eat to live or live to eat ' i think i'll do both, but the ' live to eat ' more like it! im a super good boy now la can. all my teachers love me. (except brokeback) but then, i think i've made a good impression for the first week! they all seem happy with me, esp with my bald head. because i don't know why, even when christian has a longer tail than me, ALWAYS come find me one la. about my hair.

guitar guitar.
BYEEEE.
(service in 5 days!)

20:50

Sunday, January 07, 2007

bleAH! (no evaluation)


let's start off by saturday. SERVICE WAS GOOD! cultural mandate, i think it's really suitable for everyone who heard it, because it's really really true and i find that it is an impacting message! last time, i used to only play christian songs on the guitar, cultural mandate, better learn more secular songs! hahahaha.

oh yeah, fellowship was weird, there was this group. who made SUPER so much noise it was irritating, and there was some profanities. (hope they're not from our church) HAH. well, ryah and i were feeling some connection against them. but im glad i held my temper. thank God for rebecca that she went and told them to quieten down. the fact that 2 guys laughed after rebec left made my blood boil. evil evil people. *calms down*
HAHAH

then we left for home, i took a train with sean all the way to potong pasir and we ate at macs, then sean went off and guess what! i met fabian, mervyn and songthai, at the macs. so funny. then we sat there and chatted from about 12am all the way to 5:45am where i had to go home. then they followed except mervyn who left for home. HAHAH nicholas also came down. the whole eagle patrol was there! then went morning swimming over at my place. then WAH, so cold!!! cannot take it. freezing like mad, then ate breakfast and i went home to sleep, the rest left for home. it's quite fun you know, we sat at macs and talked for 5 hours, talking nonsense, making fun of teachers and laughing and cracking LAME JOKES. LAME JOKES. sometimes lame jokes aren't always funny. but at night, everyone's high and no one can resist LAME JOKES! the ultimate funniest thing ever.

SCHOOL TOMORROW!
taa~

22:50

Saturday, January 06, 2007

INSULTING!

what's it to youuuuuu how i look! it's not as if you really do care. hahaha, what a joke. hahaha, today i heard ms sng's a great badminton player. i just can't imagine her jumping up to hit the shuttlecock. it's just weird. pure queerness! first period, history! oh man, it was so boring because he asked everyone where they went for the holidays. good thing he didn't ask me, because i was too lazy to answer him if he did. why is it so interesting to go around telling people what they did during the long (not long enough) holidays.

haha, i've made a promise to go running every alternate day. monday, running, tuesday, study, wednesday, running and so on.. and guess what, i haven't paid my fine, im so dead if i don't pay by this sunday. i MUST remember to do so. *im broke* so im just gonna have to cut down on my expenses and what i spend on. i find niggers really cool when they go ' you feel me? ' rather than ' you understand me? ' hahahha, it's quite cool with the slang, and us singaporeans can't do it!

frankly, i want to start studying. but how to if i don't get my materials to do so. the auntie super bad, don't wanna sell me the 5 year series haha. tomorrow's service! yay. can't wait can't wait. i've got so many things to do, so many things to pay for. and im just just just so tired of my life right now. life's really taxing. but it's what's happening on saturdays that keep me going on. it's what that empowers me to go on with life through the week. i find God's prescence really touching. i don't know why, but whenever going through it with Him, it just lifts me up suddenly and i forget every care in the world. it's as if a dad does everything for me and im just so carefree. it's that kind of feeling. ah, bliss.

my dad bought another aurowana. (how to spell) it's so expensive la, one small little fish! and he calls it ' dragon' hahaha. so funny. i want a hamster, i've been wanting hamsters ever since i saw my friend have one. but he bullies it. that's why i wanted a hamster to treat it nicely. but my dad told me they were smelly, so i didn't wanna get a hamster, then i wanted a dog after that, and well, i never got it hahahah. i once owned turtles. i washed their cage twice and then i got tired of it. and it stinkkkkkkkked.


tired tired tired.

00:06

Thursday, January 04, 2007

BOTAK BOTAK

it's simply hilarious how i'm still on the comp even though i told myself to study and do my work. WELL, how to do work if i don't have the necessary materials for work! then bookshop auntie very good, ask me wait for my 5 year series, THEN WAIT WAIT WAIT, wait for 20 mins, tell me don't have. resulting me coming in late for class. :@

shucks, years seem to pass by so quick. just a few years ago, i was jumping about in class playing beyblade. and now im sec 4 going to take my o levels in about 8 months time. wow. I DON'T FEEL SEC 4 AT ALL. i feel young.

okay, gonna go do homework now. :D

oh you are just so irritating, one of these days someone might just snap and get you.
i doubt it'll be me, because im nice! but yes, please keep your mouth shut and stop
your stupid and lame nonsense because it really irritates and doesn't benefit anyone
and you've got no friends btw.

19:32

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.

let's see.. what did i do? haha, i woke up so early it scares me. i've never gotten up this early in my entire sec 3 year. my hair scares me as well, after what i did to it just now. so.. i went to school, crapped like crazy. haven't met my friends for very very long and i got to see my juniors in their long pants. i tell you fabian's getting to be more and more yan dao. oh well, not surprising, im his senior. so naturally *ahem ahem* haha!

first few hours were spent in ms sng's homeroom doing nonsense and NOTHING. then went for recess. oh however my teeth hurts, i still love my dear muslim food and my nice nice friends who never fail to let me in the queue. God bless them. recess was weird, and peng GOT SHAVED. now he's a featherless bird. hahaha. poor guy, there goes his tail.

then, after a talk from the principal, it set me thinking about what i wanna do till this year-end. i find it's quite short and really it should be kept studying and all. and i REALLY MUST get down to studying or else i might fall short of my goal. and i want to take this chance to thank min rui for being so nice and giving me tuition. it's my honour to have her as my teacher because she's just so clever. i don't know how she solved the question i took 10 mins and couldn't solve in 2 minutes. ah, long way to go for me! BUT I SHALL WORK HARD.

homework's getting on my nerves, can't seem to find all my homework.
OH WELL. SERVICE'S COMING SOON yay. you know, i find that during the holidays, days pass faster than when school reopen. within a blink of my eye, 2 months passed, and now im blinking and blinking and only 2 days passed since school started. how torturous. :(

BUT. I'LL MAKE THE BEST OUR OF SCHOOL. NIGHT.

23:16

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

movies galore!

today, was quite a great day! let me see what i did. i think i did a lot of things. i woke up at 2pm. and i think i might be late for school tomorrow, as usual. but i'll try my best! don't know when evaluation will be held, but i hope it'll be soon. im excited for it. oh yeah! today. i woke up and waited for my parents to get up, then i got frustrated and went in to jump on the bed. that woke them up! (finally) then had to drag my dad out, so he'd get to the toilet to wash up. i tell you man, my dad is an awesome sleeper. he's a light sleeper, but he can just sleep for like hours. well, i guess i kinda got it off him as well. i can sleep for hours and still feel like sleeping! oh well, logs are like that.

so today, we went to the arcade, and i got my mum to dance as well. and i lost to this guy in daytona. well i can lose and take it, but there was something about this guy that kept making me wanna challenge him again and again and again. so i did. wasted money. then went shopping, and HEH HEH i got my mum to buy me a windbreaker. because we were gonna watch a movie, and then my mum was gonna be cold, so in the end, she used the windbreaker, and i got it. hahaha, i guess my mum buys on impulse because she needed it and i wanted it. ah i love my family. and yay, i finally got a picture of my dad, mum and i in my phone. been waiting ages. you know, it's been maybe 5 years since we took a family photo. :D

charlotte's web is a nice show. it's almost touching and when wilbert pleaded charlotte to climb down from the ledge because she was gonna die, was soooooooo touching. i almost cried. sry, im gay. HAHAHA. kidding, im not. i still love girls. oh yeah, and i find it quite retarded that a spider can actually spell. she used her web to make words, and i really don't know how the word on the web refers to the pig. but all in all, it's a good and heartwarming show. 7/10! hard gay is still the best. then they went to eat sakae sushi. and ate some really 'NOT-FILLING-AT-ALL' food and paid about $30. i wonder how my parents can do that. and school's starting tomorrow! ah, there goes my holidays.

can't wait till my O levels are over. frankly, i need to make plans right now. so i can plan where i want to go, what i wanna do and what i wanna become. then i can decide. and i want new strings for my guitar, the old one's REALLY STRONG. and hasn't snapped. (are you jealous, Phua?) hahaha! his snaps like nobody's business. heh heh. i guess school will be a good thing. i hope it does me good to go back without cutting of my tail. i really wanna stay out of trouble this year!

what i wanna do this year:
1) Be a really good boy and stay out of trouble!!
2) Study really really hard and not let my parents down!
3) Grow closer to God and get a halo over my head haha
4) Love Jesus MORE AND MORE EACH DAY.

22:14

TODAY.

was a nice day, i got up at 7pm, and was going to go for a walk when i saw that my parents were at home as well, so i didn't go for a walk. my parents were gonna watch curse of the golden flower. well, i was feeling rather drowsy, and wasn't ready for such a long, boring talkshow, so i didn't go with them. my teeth are wrecking havoc for me in my mouth again, and i have to abstain from nuts. and WHY NUTS of all food, nuts are my favourite la.

they're so crunchy, munchy and are really nice. (i don't know, i've got a weakness for crispy stuff) and even though i wasn't supposed to eat, i did in the end, you know those crispy ones with coated honey over it? (yummm) haha, can't resist. right now, im hungry, and im lazy to do my homework even though ben gave me the homework he was supposedly selling at $5. hahaha, how money-minded.

AND FINALLY, i finished my blogskin, it's took me ages to find out the stupid pixel for this, winding up thing (which i stole from guitar4christ) heh. it's quite cool. marquee they call it. i used to think marquees were people who looked like priests who're evil and shoot red birds out. because there was this game i played where the priests were called marquees.

i still think it's quite ugly. and today was the best time of my life. peanuts and i was watching this ridiculous movie. 'little nicky' it's the devil's son. the 2 satanic-freaks were the FUNNIEST man. they were like crazy over him because they found out he was the devil's son. hahaha, but in the end, adam sandler had satan for a dad, and an angel for a mum. how corny. the angels won in the end, his gay brother with horns died, or got sucked in a bottle. don't know which. and they made fun of popeyes chicken. hahahaha it was hilarious, he used his 'magic' and made popeyes chicken and sanctified all the devils, it was cute. and i wonder how it sanctifies, popeye chicken is quite disgusting, even though many like it.. i think it's not worth to go all the way to the airport, just to queue for an hour, pay an overpriced amount for some chicken that isn't as good as KFC. that's my opinion, but if you like it, then okay, you do.

well, i watched 'american beauty' after that, which was about a mum, having an affair with her friend, a dad supposedly wanted to "make a baby" with his daughter's friend. and their daughter going out with a mental-hospital boy. it's so confusing, then watching halfway i turned it off. now my mum's watching 'the devil wears prada' why on the 2nd day of the new year so many devil devil devil. but, the victory's already won. and all we gotta do is believe that and just walk confidently, because God is the almighty God and nothing is impossible for Him. hah, im gonna eat properly tomorrow. (hopefully) because i know my teeth are gonna be alright. (i think)
and i tripped in my own house. HOW RIDICULOUSLY DUMB. i don't think anyone should trip or fall or do anything stpid after they've lived there for about 5 years or more. and i tripped, how malu, but yay no one was at my house to watch me trip.



i want to eat nuts again. + i can't bite my nails, i think it's a good thing. i'll kick the habit soon.

02:48

Monday, January 01, 2007

before i start off anything. HAPPY NEW YEAR! it's 2007. time to put back all my badness in the apst year and look forward to the new year and what i'm going to be! frankly there's not much change from 31/12/2006 to 1/1/2007. i can still remember what i did on 31st december. i sprayed yiwei. hahaha! let's see. i slept till very very late, and then woke up in time to rush down and guess what, i reached there too early. my dad la! tell me take 1 hour, in the end the time taken was only about 30 mins. so i was playing guitar over there by myself and everyone kept staring at me. when michelle, ryan, yiwei and melanie came, we all were making a lot of noise right outside the MRT station. and a bunch of ignorant repugnant kiddos who looked like they were snobs, whispered ' city harvesters '. for a moment i was gonna ask them if they weren't happy about it. then i hesitated. i WONDER WHY. then after that, forget it, we just continued playing till we saw cheryl, merilyn and idk who. (forgot her name) haha, then since we didn't really know how to go, we just followed them. i hope vincent didn't get a stomachache after eating the finger infested cake. hahaha. melanie, cheryl's fingers were like poking m & ms into it and really squishing the $2 pandan cake. hahaha. then when we reached, went to play arcade. im really glad that i wasn't the only one that played the para para thingie, it's my first time playing. then i got ryan, yiwei and VINCENT (my conjoined twin) to dance! vincent and i shared and played one last time, and when we got 1st placing, we put our name as ' CJT! ' which stands for ConJoined Twins! hahaha, get it? if not, you're really dumb. it's fun, im gonna play it again next time. then after that, watched mel, mel, michelle fly kite. haha, even when it was the highest, it still got cut and came down. then all of us were playing with the thread and entangled everyone. was funny. after a finally long time, we crossed over the road and ate steamboat, and my TEETH hurt manz. they still do. after eating, headed down to east coast to count down. frankly, it was a long walk. and i miss the time when lewis and i walked back home from east coast. it was FUN man.. if you ever tried it. 2 hours of just walking and talking. it's like having a really good friend beside you, just talking and not having a care in the world. hey i feel really happy that my dad let me out so late. maybe it was because THEY'RE NOT EVEN BACK YET. crazy people, disco disco disco. my parents are a weird couple i tell you, that time my mum got drunk and started dancing in a pub, then so did my dad. i just continued singing! :D then went over to melanie's place the playground and played cards, got stared at by people at the 3rd story, then after that, melissa and ben left to go home. then continued staying till morning where there was buses and trains. then ryan filled us in with his ghost stories, and i was keeping silent because my 6 ulcers has JUST GONE UP TO 10. WOW. and it HURTS. today was fun, the new year, although i think it did start bad for me, my teeth, my feet, and whatever i did to the couple in the tent, haha. but i think God has blessed me tremendously still. and im thankful for that. then i took a train home, hope john, ryan and michelle are doing okay, when i left their train still haven't even came. because theirs come from boon lay. how incredulously far. and right now, im POOR. im BROKE. and im HAPPY. oh, i was also amused by how everyone got ripped off. they bought those ribbon and foam spray cans at $10 for 5 and when ryan and melanie came back, everyone found out that they got theirs at $5 for 5. hahahaha, that was funny. well. im gonna go play a bit of games, then sleep.

my teeth hurt.. hope they get more comfortable soon..
are you avoiding me? ( this is such a long post, im amazed )
DEAR JESUS, I THANK YOU FOR CHRISTMAS AND RYAN AND THAT AWESOME SERVICE, BLESSED ME TREMENDOUSLY. I LOVE YOU.

07:05

Friday, December 29, 2006

i tell you. yesterday was the thanksgiving dinner. i think it really went well. the food was EXCELLENT. yummmmmmmy. you know, our drama was really funny, although we didn't think so. i think it's because we practised it over and over till we didn't really find it funny. you know the feeling when someone tells you a joke 3, 4 times? hahaha. then after the drama everyone cleared up. i think the friends had a great time. although on the train we were making a bit too much noise, and the people were irritated. haha. then, you know what? i didn't go home. zzzz i think it was because my dad was already angry that i was still out at midnight, well i was hungry, what to do! then he was like screaming non-stop on the phone. then i think it wasn't safe to go home so i was gonna go for a walk. then ben insisted to follow me, so er, went to his house after that. watched a couple of movies, and saw melissa's unglamness hahaha. i never saw someone who could just sleep sitting upright. then because it was nicholas's birthday, i was supposed to drink this coke and some liqour which made the coke really taste weird. but it was 'enjoyable'. and i sort of went, emo. i can't believe i did that. i always told myself to be happy. to not let things get in my way. i mean, if it's past it's past right? there's no use raking it up and thinking all over again about it. fine, if i miss it, then i miss it. then i'll do something about the present and make me miss the present more! there's no meaning to it. i guess im gonna buy my school books on sunday. dad's already *boom* *bang* *bish* about me not going home. then the 1st of january is cominggg soooooon. i wonder how she knew. why ppl so big mouth! hahaha. supposed to be kept secret. frankly, i don't know why im keeping it a secret. im shy! ^^ well, it'll come to light soon. and i didn't REALLY like christmas this year. but thanksgiving was really good. make-up hahahaha. i doubt i'll ever forget this day! wow. as im sitting here right now, i've just had a flood of memories. bad ones. im feeling sick right now. i think im gonna go back to my sweet lil kewl-zOHMANZ bed! im really sleeping my head off. night.

thank You, dear Lord Jesus!

20:38

Thursday, December 28, 2006

HELLO! im glad to be home. i think im drunk. today was really fun, my parents were there again, and i went nuts la! dance by myself. i think nxt time i'll go back to orange juice. but i liked the experience. singing like crazyyyyy! oh yeah, yesterday, i stayed over at phua's house. i thought my dad would still be mad over it, but hehehe, he's alright today and was singing also. he's really funnnn la, his friends all call him uncle john cos he's much older than everyone else. so funny. and i was FORCED to sing jay chou songs, which errr, i can't really sing, because the words are so weird. :D (just covering up the fact i can't sing it) hahaha. my duet with dad again was greaaaaaaaaat. ' don't let the sun go down on me ' i think im starting to believe my dad that liquor really opens your diaphram. let's your voice go higher. really did for me. and i was louder! yay. sg idol soon. hahahaha kidding. the stayover at phua's house was fun as usual. played guitar like crazy, and then played need for speed. even though phua beat me he still got OWNZED by the curve. he didn't make it. HAHAHA! i think ' O Holy Night ' is the coolest song ever right now. i think phua has inspired me to play plucking. because it REALLY MAKES NICE SOUNDS. and the song angelina is really really really nice la.. oh man, but it's SUPER DIFFICULT! today we went to xingying's house to practice our drama again. i think i've gotten all the beats correct, but i'm still puzzled. i think vincent and i look more like gay partners than conjoined twins. but, haha i suppose it's funny. so that's why it's like that. pray everything goes well tomorrow! tomorrow, i gotta get up at 1pm. i hope i can. im a log man. at phua's house. he kept KICKING ME OFF THE BED. but i pushed him back. and when he finally got off the bed, i took the whole thing to myself and slept for 4 more hours than him! im proud of that fact. hahahaha. then i gorged myself with rice rice rice and more rice at bugis. that was funny. stuart looked really tired. phua asked me a really interesting question. frankly, i think i'd be very excited and glad to see what's in store for me if that happened. but yeah, i think i still have a looooong way to go. not prepared for it yet. not wise to start something we know God won't bless us in right? (yeah! althea gave me this phrase) but 1st january! im ready for it. and it's COOOMING SOOOOOOOOOOOOON.

okay, im quite crazy nuts now. so im gonna go to bed
NIGHT.

03:09

Monday, December 25, 2006

today, was a fun day in my opinion. i'm never tired of the christmas drama! it's really good. i hope i can watch it again. it's funny, especially michael jackson part. thank you drama team for making it so well *claps* ya, then i fell asleep during the word >gay! hahahaha, i dnno why mel and ben wanted to switch presents. the book was more expensive than the cup hahaha. life's like that. thanks for the tie btw, christian and melissa. it's really nice but i don't know what to wear with it! :D how about boxers, singlet and that tie. hahaha. today we were CRAZY at the carnival. at the back of the queue to this ride, we were okay and not so crazy, then after john left, and we got nearer nearer, we ALL panicked and went crazy, we were screaming for no reason (maybe just me) but then everyone panic panic haha, we totally went CRAZY *ahhhh* on the ride, we screamed for no reason and also sang songs like mad. i sang 2 songs, 1 to patrick and 1 to nicholas. they'd better feel honoured! hahahaha. you know what, i think our ride was the longest. in sunway lagoon, they usually give encore rides to the noisiest group and i think we were the noisiest that's why we got 2 rounds. and we really attracted a lot of people to it -.-". oh well. favour with men! O;D then after that, we went to spend off what we had left of coupons. and met POH! :D *excited* hahahaha. i was gonna get a pic with him, but oh well. then after that, we met tiffany's cell and then had a singing competition to see who can sing louder. im really happy, because the 4 of us. melanie, melissa, yiwei and i were like screaming in the mic. ahahaha was really fun! screaming instead of singing. then we all left and took a train back home. i fell asleep and missed my stop. sad. but i still got home in the end. that's it for today!

it was fun, but i couldn't sense the prescence of God today.
next week's gonna be great, i knooooo it.
thank you Lord Jesus, happy birthday and thanks for everything!
my cell's really fun, getting better and better!
i'm sorry i ever had the intention of abandon.

17:51

Sunday, December 24, 2006

quick summary of today and i'll be off! well, let's see. today's service was great, debbie, her friend feric and song jie came! although they didn't give their lives i think they had a great time. debbie got her ride on that weird thing that's nuts in the end. think she was glad she did. hahaha! so, service's drama was GREAT. but ben seemed out of sorts and really tired. bless him. ah well, and we watched a movie. it's called ' night at the museum '. that show really changed my mind, i want to get a job like that! it'll be so cool, so awesome. and wow, so exciting. but i'd get really freaked out if the T-rex didn't behave like a dog. hahahah. hm. so that's it for today. last service tomorrow! merry CHRISTMAS! it's 12:00.

23:42

today was great! service was great! the drama was AWESOME! today i cut my hair and my dad told me i looked like an ah beng. but im nice at heart okay! D: so ya. hahaha. tomorrow's gonna be my ULTI-MATE stuff. it's gonna be great. anyway. today the carnival was super funny. we played this soccer thign where we were tied and had limited space to run. and the lines were connected to each player, so when one ran forward, the other would be pulled forward as well. was funny. yiwei rammed the ball into melissa TWICE. was hilarious. and i scored 2 lucky shots :D sean's such a great keeper! or else! !!! hahaha. was fun. got quite a number of presents. SRY guys. i don't give christmas presents! only thanksgiving ones =) so you'll have to waiiiiiiiiiit. it's gonna be funfunfunfun. today E412 is nicknamed = kiasu cell group. hahah we CAME AT 3:45 when we were going for service at 7:30! before the first service people went in, we were already queuing, then the ushers chased us off! hahahaha. ALRIGHT. gonna sleep early

01:06

Friday, December 22, 2006

im sorry for this angry post you people don't deserve to read.
LAST DAY OF WORK! *hurray* Jerome and i were happy. however, got my money a bit too quick. and now it's going away to my fine which they didn't approve of. HOW COULD THEY. im just a student man. o well! well im rather pissed right now for dunno what reason. must be something my mum said, i really don't care. so she's trying to get me tos tay away from church? and who was that person who went door to door asking for donations. WHAT A WEIRDO, okay, if you're gonna do that, please go kill yourself. it's really stupid and it spoils our reputation. and that WEIRD-NOSE woman who wrote in to the straits times really doesn't have anything to do other than YAKYAKYAK with her big WEIRDO face. im angry and i forgot what i wanted to post about today. oh yeah, supposed to go out and shop some more with jerome and yet, here i am at home doing NTH. what am i doing with life, i wonder. what's all this about? sometimes people just PISS me off, and when they do, they think they're really funny, and KEEP ON DOING IT WHATNOT. what kind of PERSON does that. well. you did.

bleh, im really angry now.
firstly, i miss ppl from work
(but i don't miss work)
secondly, i miss JESUS!!!
(Jesus has nothing to do with the church, i don't worship the church man)
GET IT RIGHT.

18:06

today, work was boring as usual. but it had an extra twist! we got PRESENTS~! Amy was really nice, and gave jerome and i chocolates gift-wrapped and which we found out, needed to queue for at least 30mins to gift wrap at takashimaya. SO NICE!!! i'm gonna get her something as well. and then the company had this draw thing where i got 15, and jerome got 8. and the boxes of biscuits were really nice. JEROME'S ONE IS NICER THAN MINEZ. :@ haha, then we went shopping. jerome was sad that he didn't get a lot of what he wanted. but then, i got lots of what i wanted. haha. just that haven't got presents for colleagues and cell. that's SAD. but im getting my pay tomorrow, so i'll shop tomorrow! hm. after that, i went with jerome to meridian, where i met my dad. and then my mum came later. im sure jerome had lots of fun. it's been long since i went karaoke once again at a pub where my mum went crazy hahaha *high*. im home now and i'm gonna be so tired once again when i work tomorrow. *sigh. karaoke was fun, jerome and i were like screaming all the funny funny songs out. and the pub wasn't really full, so we sang and sang and sang. fun. fun. fun. SATURDAY, SUNDAY, MONDAY'S COMING SOON! 2 out of 4 people i aimed are coming, and the last one will only be revealed tomorrow! if she agrees that is. but i hope it won't be out of place.


dear Lord Jesus, all i want for christmas is for people i love to be saved!
* 'tis the season to be jolly, FA LA LA LA LA, LA LA LA LA! *

01:14

Thursday, December 21, 2006

let's think back. what should have happened and what shouldn't? well, if it did, it did. no point thinking and trying to kid myself. anyway. it's getting really bad, all the things i've planned up CRASHED, COLLIDED and MADE MY LIFE DIFFICULT. this is so sad! yesterday my plan was to, wake up, buy my books, go for bs, get my teeth done, and head down for prayer meeting in time! so let's see what happened yesterday. i woke up late, rushed down for bs, just made it, didn't get to buy my books. went to get my teeth extracted, bled like crazy, then missed my stop by 5 stops. and then was really late for prayer meeting and missed lots of things. and today, was a rather great day, but an awesome time-waster. haha, first, i finished work and went down with jerome to plaza singapura. then i met debbie, who came about 6:20. then visited amelia on the way. and then we were walking around when jerome wanted to meet phua, so yeah, waited. and then some guy in white approached us about the lightshow thingie. where we were gonna get interviewed for our feedback on the lightings. frankly it sucked, but nevermind, we just made our points nice and tidy and made it seem great. haha. catch me on Channel News Asia. HA sounds so retarded. aaaaaaaaaaanyway. after that, went to eat. i couldn't eat because my mouth hurt so bad, and i didn't have my painkillers with me. but joash's nice, shared with me some food which (yay) was small enough to fit into my throat and not chew. so it was quite alright. then after that, went to play pool. frankly, the last time i TRIED playing was last year, and i really don't have the talent for it. hahaha, can't shoot for nuts. well, i'm not a frequent at pool, only the arcade and basketball. only my dad can play pool well though. then after that, we left and headed home. took the train and wow, i was unusually quiet. i wonder why.. but ya, shall not let anything, aaaaaaaaanything get me down. feeling really tired now.


so im gonna go to bed!
hope i get my half-day on friday.
really busy, EVERYTHING'S
clashing! sad. see ya.

Pray over my life that all things will go well next week onwards.

00:06

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

ooooooooo lala~ today, im rather sad that my sharp tooth has gone away, and i can't scratch my tongue on my tooth ANY LONGER! it's just saddening to know that next week the 2 teeth on my right side will be gone as well. and i'll be left with 4 holes in my mouth. im envious of the people who have perfect teeth and don't need any braces. namely, Joseph Phua. hahaha. yeah, i admire his nice straight perfect-o teeth. bright too. well, i want to illustrate the use of dental tools, which is gonna make you lose your appetite, so if you are eating/going to eat. please close this page IMMEDIATELY. first, he put some rubber banks between my morcles (or however you spell) the back teeth. and at that time it felt good to use your tongue and feel weird things popping out. BUT NOW IT HURTS LIKE CRAZY OKAY. i was practically holding my mouth during prayer meeting. and talking makes it hurt as well. so ya, the dentist. INJECTED MY GUMS. and even when they put the gel there to lessen the pain, the needle was super what la. REALLY PAIN. but the numbness was rather fun. but after the dental, it wasn't fun. felt weird, like as if my bottom lip was dropping out. oh ya, so he took this weird metal instrument. and starting wrestling with my tooth, boy did it sound weird. even if it didn't hurt. i could feel the metal going clank clank in my mouth, then after that a soft *pop* sound and my tooth was out. didn't hurt but was sick. can see blood dripping everywhere all. ooo, yeah was sick. so then, i rushed down for prayer meeting after that. GUESS WHAT, missed my bus cos 2 fat ladies didn't want to move, even when i tried saying excuse me. they just minded their so called, business. which was blocking the way. man. then the next bus took AGEEEES. then i was late, because of the poor vision due to rain rain rain, i missed my stop, had to take back. and by the time i reached, praise and worship was over. so i prayed with john. which made my mouth hurt. then after prayer meeting. i got torture time = eating. wah so pain la. then after that, went to some tunnel where we practised drumming. okay la, i was looking quite sian, but it wasn't because of the drumming. it was because i couldn't talk as i usually would. even smiling hurts. =( hmm yeah, tomorrow gonna go for a movie with my *muack* hard-earned money! awright. im glad. and christmas shall be a really great time for me. and hopefully i want to bring more friends!


please please dear Jesus, i've been so good this year, all i want for christmas is more of my friends and hopefully my relatives and parents to get saved!

haha, it's santy no more, but Jesus the KING of KINGS!

22:36

Monday, December 18, 2006

today, was a weird day. it rained, stop, rained, stop, rained, stop! how queer. well, today i can see that when the manager isn't here. EVERYONE'S slack. hahaha so were jerome and i. because when everyone's slack, we're all slack. hm, not that we didn't do work. we did work, but talked as well. normally when the manager's around. people will work and ask only work-related questions. but now whoa, suddenly so noisy and funny. wow, adults are rather funny as well. :D hahaha, im excited once again because jan is coming soon! yay. nicholas pangseh me!!! haiyo. oh well, another day then. my plans for tomorrow are crazy, a bit too packed. off day like not off day like that. and i think it might be impossible to do it. but thank God it's all sorted out. and by His grace and power i can go through it. because it's quite the impossible if you look at it. and if anyone wants me to fit in another event into my calender for tomorrow, it's practically telling me to die of exhaustion. let's see, im going to buy my school books in the morning (by myself) and carry it back home, then shower and change and RUSH down for bs at suntec tower 3. then after that i have to RUSH to little india where i am to get lost in search of the place to pay my fine. and i can just imagine myself talking to the officer and trying to bargain my way out. and that'll probably take one hour of non-stop talking and i might die of dehydration. because policemen always have too much saliva, they talk a lot and never get tired. so after that, i've gotta rush for my dental appointment. then after my dental appointment, is BEST LAR. 10mins to get from orchard to YMCA building for prayer meeting. MANZ I BETTER NOT BE LATE. well, seeing as time passes as normal as it does, i will be late. sad... well life's like that sometimes. jerome and i seem to be liking older women. HAHA. there's this auntie where we thought she was a chio bu last time. so ya, we're like ' YA MANZ, SHE LOOK LIKE THE KIND LAST TIME AH LIAN AND CHIO BU ONE RIGHT ' and we agreed with each other. haha, i think i'll let jerome have her. he seems to like her more. :D heh heh. anyway. tmr stressed out.
WAIT WAIT WAIT. LET ME TELL YOU SOMETHING. I'VE GOT MY PAY!!!!
:D MY FIRST PAYCHECK IS INNNNN.
*gonna cash in soon*

awright.

Thank God for everything that's going perfect right now.

19:24

Sunday, December 17, 2006

YO! today was a great day, with great news and im glad to say, im OVERJOYED. :D today i had a great sleep, i woke up at like 2 plus in the afternoon, then i layed around and did nothing, all the way till 4pm where there was a heavy rain and i had to contemplate whether i was gonna go to guitar class or not. and im OHYEAH glad i went manz. it was fun. i think my past few practising at night has helped me, and yesterday when my parents both came back after 2am. i had 10pm - 2am to myself and i whacked the whole night. rocksZ! so anyways. the good news is 1ST JANUARY 2007. yes, that's the good news. that's the thing i'll be waiting for, and that's the thing that's coming in only 2 WEEKS TIME!! im glad christmas is coming as well. but the problem is.. friends are a big problem for me. ya? you see, ppl who i hang out with in school before, are almost 70% in church right now. so the other 30%, maybe 10% are churched, the other 5% are from other religions. the last 15% is like, okay. im trying my best. but if they say no, i can't just keep trying to win their hearts right? seems like i gotta ask God for more revelations. my prayers are getting better and better right now. and im glad im back on track. the few weeks ago, my qt was really bad.. it was stale and dry. sad. and if i keep asking, my friends might just wanna kick me aside and tell me to shut up and not hang out with me anymore. yea, so i gotta make more friends? it isn't that easy though. i can't just walk up to people to ask for their numbers, and i can't just. get to know more people, because i already know all of them. the problem with my school, is that 90% of my school came from the primary school. and YES i do know most of them because in primary school i was known for being bad? ya, mischievious. BUT YOU CAN'T HELP IT RIGHT. we were all so young and innocent! O=) haha, so in a way, infamous. but i will try my very very best. actually, sometimes when i keep trying to get my friends to confirm with me, i find myself very irritating, and i end up apologising to them. and they just tell me that im not irritating. why is this so! it's queer. okay, that's all about today, and what i thought.

1ST JANUARY COME FASTERRR PLS
(not because of school)

21:30

hm. today was great. service then had christmas-genic. christmas and photo-genic. get it? well, even if you didn't, i'll just rant about it anyway. today was fun. let's start with service. today pastor preached something really good!! great stuff. it's about getting up from failures. strength is the capacity to handle failures! wow. hmm. yeah, was great. praise really kicked up with ' Now Is The Time ' so long never sing already! hahaha. today my dressing was totally off-course with the events lined up haha. wore a whole suit =S hot manz. after that we went to tampines mall. where we had christmas-genic. and CRAZY LA. RUN RUN RUN. like mad liddat. but it was really fun. had to ask a number of people to take pictures. and we made 2 MTV's which totally ruined our reputations hahaha. but was funny. i hope there's no one i know that recognises me there. :D anyway. it was fun as well. won 2nd place. which landed us with.. chocolates. manz im gonna have a sore throat soon. haha. oh ya, the main point about my blogging today is about the strange deluded psycho man that kept staring at amelia and i in the bus. wah. from the time we went to the bus interchange, the guy kept staring at us. then went up to sit in front of us. he kept TURNING BACK AND STARING THAT MURDEROUS STARE. like wanna kill us. and his eyes were really black.. so rather freaky. although amelia was laughing like mad. then i was like telling her if the man followed her off the stop, she should get back on and i'll go down. sounds as if im not scared? AHHAHA I WAS FREAKIN OUT LIKE CRAZY. and i kept telling myself. I've got a great God who's gonna deliver us from the hands of psychos. because God created the psycho as well, so He has control! :D haha, was glad that the man got off before amelia's stop. so at least we were safe. but you never know, he could be in a taxi chasing after us. well. you know. us sexy people always get attention. HAHAHA. amelia concluded that. well, i contributed a bit. so then, after that, im home :D
it's christmas time!!

haha, today i felt a tangible prescence of You again. i'm glad. Thank You. i know im not cast out.

OH OH YEAH. GUITAR LESSONS RESUME TOMORROW! WOOHOO.
it's gonna be great. and im meeting yiwei tomorrow in the afternoon.
to teach him a wee bit more chords and strumming.. haha hope it's useful.






am i scared?

00:37

Friday, December 15, 2006

heh heh, work sucks. but it's fun. hmm, i don't get what im saying, but yeah, that's what i mean. well today was the first time i saw jerome and myself getting eyebags. *i need sleep* yup. eyebags!! manz, what a disgrace to myself. i must keep my face complexture back to perfect-o condition again! SK II. hahaha, no, i was kidding. actually i don't know why i have such smooth cheeks. they're quite sick actually. my aunties love pinching them. and my dad likes to rub them and tease me. but. they're nice to touch rather than pock face marks on them. hmm. well, working again tomorrow. then gonna rush down for service. which i know is gonna be great. poor debbie cannot come along. hmm.. i think i've really called and irritated her. shucks, maybe i shouldn't have kept asking her non-stop. ah well. jerome's gotta rush down to jurong west, so sadly.. i can't go to service with him. ah wells. working life seems great. especially when people talk about peak hours, we know we caused it! =) hmm, now i forgot what i wanted to blog about.
so nevermind, i might remember tomorrow
SEE YA!


satisfied today.

23:50

hahahahhaa. empty threat? murder then murder la. to think you can even hurt me with a 10-feet pole? hahahaha. gosh, who're you kidding. well just stay close to your boundaries. because if you piss me off again. i'll re-taliate. see?


well well, cell today was great. i was in time! well, missed games though. hahaha. christmas. how wonderful. hm, and today, i went home a different way. took 31 home. with, jonathan, claplaton, john, cheryl. hahaha, that jonathan is really interesting! and funny. we're now the double 0 J's! which sounded corny, but it's cool! just reached home about 30 mins ago, and when i did. just felt so tempted to call in sick. but HEY, im not fasting tomorrow. (hm, maybe i should, my friends aren't showing much interest) zup chai peng! "mixed vege rice" yumm. can't wait for service this saturday, and christmas as well! hm, tuesday i'll be free-er. to pay my fine and buy books. i think God did this situation in my life so i'll have my time managed, oh well. gain something, lose something. really, there goes my once in a blue moon chance. well maybe nxt time. maybe it's for the better... ?



i think it's for the better if i giiiiiiiiive up.
can't believe i fell asleep today.
Jesus, help me stay true. to You

00:20

Wednesday, December 13, 2006


heh, after spending so much time working, going for bs, service and spending my time with my cell. i forgot how fun it was to just go out with good friends and just go wild. hahaha. this was um, before prayer meeting yesterday. but i'll just blog about it anyways. edward's pretty fun actually. (when he's not whining) hahahah. and yes, i would like to go out again. heh today was pretty boring! same stuff same things. (i sort of HATE filing now) well, i've always hated it, because in school we needed to. and guess what, i never filed anything. hahaha but now im filing for money, so yeah, WHAT'S THE HARM. but seriously, it's tiring, it's eye-hurting and it's "OHMYGOSH HAVE TO REDO?" ah well. life. today, junwei STOOD ME UP. how could he! ah. well, after being his friend for so long, i thought i've learnt not to expect much from him.
he's uncontactable (even when he has a phone)
he likes to sleep (that's why he doesn't pick up)
he doesn't like to call (that, too)
ah, we were supposed to play basketball after i finish work. but he didn't come. and he couldn't be contacted (yet again) so i just went ahead and played with these 2 weird guys. who kept talking about me as if i wasn't there. but they were giving compliments? i think. but i heard some bad points. nevermind. there was this little kid who kept following me. i went to the first court, then after a while he came to the first court, so i moved to the second one in case i hit him with my ball. and then he came to the second one as well. (im no paedo!) haha. but that was queer. then after like 1 hour, it looked like it was gonna rain, so i headed home and had one of the BEST qt's everrrrrr! indescribable. eh, i want another one like this tomorrow. but tomorrow's cell group and im fasting as well. christmas christmas, i need friends. and the people i'm reaching out to isn't showing much um, interest.. as they're my basketball friends, all they're interested in is.. basketball. go eat also cannot. tsk. i was thinking of the song ' Do they know it's christmas time ' by Band Aid 20. i like that song. it starts with, ' it's christmas time, there's no need to be afraid ' hmm.. does it mean ' DON'T BE AFRAID TO REACH OUT ' or what, but nevermind, i'll take it as that. the song has so much meaning. we should all go download and listen. okay maybe not download, BUY the CD =S (waste money) hmm, but i think it's too old already! im starting to lose interest in ' all about you ' !!!! how can this be! and im getting more interested in ' blessed be your name ' hahaha. i like the accent, it's funny to follow it. tomorrow once i finish work i gotta rush down to val's house. cell group. it's gonna be good!!!
then after cell i HAVE TO RUSH HOME =( awz. we're having combined and i was thinking of hanging out more. but i have to go home. then i also need to rest early. yesterday was really the extreme. i fell asleep only at 2++ and when i woke up, really took a lot of determination just to get out of my comfortable bed! hope tomorrow'll be better.

i miss Jesus yet again.

Blessed be Your name
in the land that is plentiful
where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
when im found in the desert plains
when i walk through the wilderness
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out, I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord still i will say:

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You GIVE and TAKE AWAY
You GIVE and TAKE AWAY
My heart will choose to say
Blessed be Your name

19:55

blog. alright, today was a preeeeeeetty rush day. woke up, rushed down because i was late. and i GOT A FINE. wow. because i didn't tap my card out? and seriously, i think i didn't take my card out. it's just so WONDERFUL that i got fined. well, i went to visit amelia and shaun at their new workplace. so many people and 1 working outlet. how queer. anyway. was with jerome and vanessa. then headed down to bs together at suntec tower 3. was GOOOOOOOOOD. and the good news is, we're only completing the rest next time. because God is so great, He made it this way. then i rushed down to meet my parents around 2:30. then went for my dental appointment. was good. im gonna get something. extraction is like, nxt week and im freaked out =(. then after that went to meet edward to collect money. then walk around until i broke fast. then ate with edward (manfred) and gek shan. then rushed down for prayer meeting. fortunately, we REACHED IN TIME YEAH! really glad for that. all in all i think it was a great day. then after prayer meeting, went to KFC to eat. hahaha everyone's crazy i tell you. on the train we were crazy as well. michelle (the one from vincent's cell) is super "like to play games" sad, i didn't learn the 'HIGH TIDE' thingie game. haha which sounded fun. then vincent and i kept playing the scissors paper stone then winner hit the hand game. hahaha our hands were RED after that. aw shucks, work tomorrow. then the good news is, after work im gonna play BASKETBALL. that's what should happen after i sit down for 8 hours doing work and growing fatter. so i should do more exercises. like basketball. and good thing junwei so free, 5pm also can rush down. thank God for the good friends i've got. they're really nice la. they can come down at 5pm and maybe play for what, 2 hours and go home? that's what i call sacrifice. that's why they're my best friends. wooh! and haven't been hanging out with them. mon - friday, work. sat, service. sun, mock. wow, im becoming a busy man (yay?) hahaha, but i really wished to be like old times. CAREFREE, NTH TO DO AT HOME (so i go out and play ball or walk around) AND SERVICE TO LOOK FORWARD TO ON SAT. nowadays. im getting stressed out. so im gonna cut off my problems. im just gonna ignore all my problems, and im gonna start ignoring my itches. it's really annoying. christian's flying off tomorrow. but sad, i can't send him off like i did ben. so i wish him a safe flight and him to come back soon. christmas. im so hard-pushed to find friends. God's gonna show me new faces and i really hope it'll be soon. i've got to like, give in the names of confirmed soon. there's so many things that's happening around me and im seriously just wanting to care but im gonna stand strong. im just gonna focus on sleep, work, take things seriously. or else, i'll collapse soon. i feel service's the only thing keeping me going. everyday, i just want to lay on my bed and sleep, sleep, sleep. but the thought of service on saturday makes me work. don't know how it links but it just does. and i really hope to reach out to my colleagues, but it's getting rather hard. i find it really tough to talk to them. nevermind, i shall pluck up my courage. however, my colleagues would be kinda out of place?? our whole cell is 20 and below. and i think they're quite like, 30 - 40? or some are younger. but nevermind. i'll just try my best.
and i seriously think people should learn to take things a little wider. and i should learn to too. because im really taking things to heart and even if i try not to, it just gets to me. and distracts me. so i MUST, SHALL, WILL (somehow) do it. yesyes.

life sucks, but i love it anyway.
because i've got Jesus in me.

I LIKE THIS PHRASE MAN.

00:26

Monday, December 11, 2006

DANG i really need more sleep. my eyes are tired, dropping and weary. today, i woke up with a 'WOOHOO, IM EARLY FOR WORK' and then i went there and kinda stoned, but still did my job. tiredly. i was REALLY glad when i got off work. and came home to play my guitar. and i snapped my string. GRRRRRRRREAT. and i didn't snap the 1st string (which is most easy to snap) but the 5th string! oh manz. now i really need to go and buy.. how sad. the default strings were really fun to whack. especially for 'All About You' yay, im making money from edward and from my job. so ya, i can pay up for all my things now. good good. and tomorrow ben and i have a very special plan we're gonna carry out! heh heh. i really hope the results will be spectacular and good in our favour. because yeah, HOPE IT WORKS! hmmz. tomorrow's prayer meeting is gonna be good. im sure of it. im so happy and thankful that God put everything in place. I can meet at city hall for bs, then after that meet my mum at city hall and go for my dental appointment. then take a straight train down to church.

life's going on well. (i've got eyebags now) fiiinally.

23:21

Sunday, December 10, 2006

aawright! today got up early and went for mock cell. it was good. but however, i am not satisfied with the way i performed, although the evaluators said ' very good ' jeanette is good tho, powerful preacher. hope i can see her become a great preacher some day. ;D but really, im no satisfied with my performance. tsk. hm, supposed to go see matthew and phua get baptised, but then it's next week. hahaha. so we wasted the trip to church. but then, got to eat duck rice! my love. hehheh. well. that's about it for today. it was interesting seeing wenshan and tiffany for the first time. got to know people a bit more. which is good.

*can't wait for christmas*
*can't wait for my pay too*

TODAY WAS GREAT. (in my opinion)

17:59

Saturday, December 09, 2006

hm. today was service. frankly, it wasn't as i expected. when the lead singer prophesied, wah, so serious la. then wasn't as i expected.. really!! and the worship sound like praise. then all of us, don't know when to clap, when to lift up our hands, or when to speak in tongues. how queer. today's Word was good! good. i really think im lacking in what pastor Tan preached. i need to buck up and really catch up on what im missing. don't wanna be the one left out in God's goodness! haha, today's fellowship was really good. considering that itch that was really getting to me. im super controlling le. but, yesyes. i can still take hold and stand it. because i know that will and should never affect me. because it's just an itch. gosh. we played games. after eating the EX(pensive)PO food. which really was bad. and EXPENSIVE. =( then we played prophet and bear. in my opinion, the first time was fun. but it's like overplayed? nevermind. then played whacko. was super funny!! hahaha. then left for home. manz, practising for preaching! HOPE IT'S GOOOD. ALRIGHT. gotta wake up early tomorrow. SO nites!


TODAY. WAS GREAT. =)

23:56

Friday, December 08, 2006

I miss Jesus.

22:54

heh heh, today was my first day of work and i must say, it's great. i did lotsa filing and some stapling and chopping. it was fun. paper work! and all the ppl there so nice la. not even like what my mum says about her boss not happy with her colleagues. but my boss so nice. kept reminding me to help myself with biscuits and drinks. then my colleagues also. so nice. buy me drink! hahaha. although i was kinda shy, but i won't be any longer! yesyes. tomorrow i'll be more bold. i'll talk. JEROME YOU BETTER COME EARLY TMR. :@ learnt a lot, how to put letters into envelopes easily. and must be in right place. so can see all the name, address. :D now im home and im doing nothing because im about to go to bed. so as to wake up early tomorrow!
(yay) TMR'S SERVICE. GONNA BE GREAT. (newsboys are coming)


LOVE YOU JESUS!

21:05

wooo, it's so early and here i am posting because im so excited for work. and also because my dad hasn't got up. :D he's a lazy pig! and im not hehehe. OK BYE

08:10

Thursday, December 07, 2006

today i had qt in the mid-afternoons, it's quite good. then i got ready to leave for val's house. i reached about 15 mins early. then met the rest. then went over to val's house. i really like to wonder, wow. people can queue up just for free coffee from starbucks. anywa. cell group was good! learnt about how to be good hosts to new friends, and how to draw them into giving their life to Christ. john spoke to me over msn a day ago. and told me how we are to lead new friends to the gate, and it is them who has the decision whether to open the gate or not. after that, i ate my ZUP CHAI PENG. dnno how to spell but this should be it. really nice. then after that we did the personal testimony thing. shared about myself. was touching. but on the girls' side. all laughing. haiyo. not serious. hahaha. anyway, after that went to play arcade. was fun. oh ya, during cell the games. melissa was screaming like crazy. then haha val screamed as well. it ws funny. john had a laughing fit. we were playing whacko. :D
all in all, great day, great Word.

23:33

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

yay! i got a job! which is QUITE good. $5 an hour and it's easy work! yeah. it'll be everyday from 9 - 5 but i'll not be going on tuesday due to my dental appointment. hope the boss won't get angry. heh heh. today jerome and i went bonkers when we found out we got the job. we were laughing hahaha like crazy at the bus stop. we actually met at potong pasir and tried all over. then went to toa payoh to try somemore. and then couldn't find. in the end, the job we got was from potong pasir. now i've got 4 extra job applications which haven't called me. whoever wants please tell me. then when i get the calls i'll call you guys. it'll be easy flyer jobs or whatsoever. for the rest of the holidays, hope i can work till i drop. tomorrow'll be cell group. john tells me it'll be great, hope nicholas can make it! yeah, i'll sleep early today! :D

23:25

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

40 is the big number we're looking at. today was the first day of fasting. then on thursday we fast again. let's see, 40 is a big number and it's quite impossible for us to bring 3 friends each. but with God, it's possible. so now we're all praying and fasting for new friends. to see new friends to bring for christmas. to get them saved is our aim! but even if they don't get saved. they still get impacted by us and by the Word. they can come and experience the love we share. so now, it is our vision. to bring as many friends as possible. i want to make it come true. okay, today. i woke up quite late. then i walked around the house so many times i can't remember how many times i walked. i really couldn't find something to do. so around 6 i met my dad at toa payoh. and ate dinner. :D then went to buy bubble tea. im sad to say it's gone up by 50c. i shall not buy bubble tea anymore. it's expensive. anyhooo. im back now and i must say. i'm back into guitaring again. i once almost lost the passion for it a few weeks ago. but now im loving it once more. :D. it's quite sad to see that i almost wanted to stop playing it that time, because i had really bugged my parents to buy me a new guitar. heh heh. tomorrow im gonna go get another job. because im broke yet once more. so hopefully i can find one by God's grace.

- yes i do.

21:22

today, was like a sports marathon for me. hahaha. okay, let's see.. i woke up at 11am. then went over to junwei's house to play basketball. then we played with this bunch of little IGNORANT and BOASTFUL kids. well, i had 1 kiddo on my team. he's so cute. then the opponent team had this tall guy, who kept rejecting our kiddo. so i started rejecting the other team's kiddo as well. then they were like ' don't bully la don't bully la, bully small kid ' WHAT! they bullied our small kiddo first. how stupid can they get. what is this world becoming! anyway, after that we got bored. so junwei and i walked over to his mum's house. where we played computer till it was 7pm. and junwei left the game to go watch his usual 7pm show. he's quite an aunty he is. haha.
then after that, went back to his grandma's house to play basketball. met nicholas (my kor) hahaha. im very sorry. i called him down then when he came i had to leave. then now i went back to play with him. haha. he's still as good as ever. can't beat him yet! YEEEET! anyway. then after playing, went upstairs and drank water. (we're such water buckets) then after that we ate dinner. (the meat was HARD) then from his house we walked to serangoon central. where we ATE AGAIN at macdonalds HAHA. but from his house to serangoon central was CRAZY. so ulu ulu and then so dark and so silent and FAR! my legs are hurting. because. SAT=BASKETBALL. SUN=RUNNING ARND SENTOSA. TODAY=BASKETBALL+WALKING. yes! im doing exercise finally. better than staying at home doing nothing, just sitting around eating and growing fat! hahaha, tomorrow we were supposed to go somewhere, but we'll wait for ben to come back. so tomorrow i'll go and find another job! i need more money! :D
HEH HEH. that's all for today.


i really think it's not the ripe moment but i can't help thinking it is.. what should i do?

00:55

Sunday, December 03, 2006

today, was FUN-FILLED and packed with a load of laughter. wow, we reached harbourfront at about 9:49, me and nicholas. which was early! yay, and then met jolene and (UM I FORGOT HIS NAME SHUCKS) then talked, slowly more people came. then the rest of my cell came. and when everyone reached, karen led us to the bus stop, where we took the bus to sentosa. (free)
then had to pay an admission of $3. and then we went in. wah, at first we were fired up, then we all played like crazy and were 1st for 3 stations. i think too much hype, then after that we all slowed down. and got lost haha! maybe we should have taken the bus. but it was better to walk. HAD fun anyway, and much much perserverance shown by our members (proud) everyone kept on running when we spurred everyone on. and when one ran, the rest ran. so it was kinda like the whole group running, SO UNITED! (L) in unity there's STRENGTH weeeee. matthew didn't hug me, haha and NVR shake my hand, evil him. matthew's my brother, my best kor, not my gay partner. so ya! well, the first station was kinda fun. had to run, then do leap frog over each other. then blow up 2 balloons and pop em with our body. so we sat on em and burst them. because of our numerous people, poor stuart and leonard had to do 5 times!! wah, so xin ku. so hiong somemore, they won leh. then leonard vomitted. poor him. hope he's alright. then after that we went to the 2nd station. which was answering questions at the underwater world. it was kinda cool as the opposing team didn't come in time and we did everything and left. then reached the 3rd station. the opposing team didn't come in time again and we did everything and left. haha. then towards the 4th station. dear matthew did his good acting and in a way, we believed that deborah's was the nxt station we were supposed to go to. so we went there and then we were so wrong. had to go to val's station. then after that we went to do our task. which was make an MTV with ' Solid Rock ' by delirious?. which was fun. and even though we didn't win first, second or third. i can say we had a lot of fun. our cell. we won the appreciation award though, which was supposedly given because we ' put a lot of effort and hard work in our MTV ' which we actually only took 10seconds to make. haha was super inprompt-to. hahaha. but we did it well anyways. then after everything. went to macs to chat while john went to watch a movie. i feel it's getting worse but i don't know if i should do something about it. if it hurts the friendship, i'd not do anything. but i don't know how long it can hold till my blood really boils. frankly, i'd rather think enough is enough, but then the consequences need to be thought through. then headed home. and now im blogging. AND I'M GONNA SLP WHILE WAITING FOR MY FOOD TO COME HOME YAY. *loves my dad*

TODAY WAS FUN. THX GOD.

20:37

heh, today was FUN. woke up early to find myself late for the meet. met the usual 1026 people, but so many missing la can. from our side all came except yujun, and then from their side, pris, jinyi and my lao ma didn't come. sad. haha jiahui was sick but still came, how nice. bet she missed me HAHAHA. she's my little sis. so yeah, isabel didn't wanna play with us, how evil. nicholas's guitar's getting better, glad to see that. he can play the chinese song, about the marrying one. ' ming tian wo yao jia gei ni ma ' means, tomorrow do i wanna get married with you. haha it was quite lame, but funny. had a lotta fun. basketball is cool manz. we beat this good team, which a sharpshooter who could ace 3-pointers. wah, and we beat them! yeah. our team was: me, junwei, jiayi and 1 sharp-shooter who does in the semi circle shots. but he's good. i love my last ball, 3 point score. heh heh, it was rather funny because when we were at last ball, the opponent team said, ' nevermind, still can win ' then i scored the last ball. wasn't really fair as we were all sec 3s and the opponent team was like, 18 - 19 yrs old. MAN THE GUY CAN DUNK LAR. no fair, oh my gosh. it was nice watching him dunk. then after that i ran home to shower and get changed. lucky i wasn't late for service, i reached at 3:42. then went to queue, talked to clarice, bryan, jolene and kenny. was funny. there's this book we saw at attributes. ' irresistable husband ' hahah! was funny. then today's praise and worship was GOOOOD. and i still love the ' I'm on fire ' at the end of service john and i went down to the floor to do the actions. pastor talked about being one with God. oh manz, today's word was GOOD. then we went to the airport for fellowship. MANZ im never gonna eat popeye again. i don't like the food. and the prices. the queue's unbelievably long as well. sadly. then we saw ben off. he's going to japan for 1 week. hahaha. *wants presents* haha no la. you know what. i want him to grab a snowball, put it in an icebox and bring it to singapore for me. YEAH i know, it'll melt. but i want to experience snow THAT bad. *hint* snowcity ain't even close to it. ah well. tomorrow's mad @ sentosa. and ben can't come. well we'll just have as much fun as possible so we won't know that ben's not there. i mean in a good way. no more lame jokes. next week will rock! newsboys coming. i've been listening to their songs all the 2 weeks. and really enjoyed it.
TMR MAD @ SENTOSA. SEE YAAAA
*needs my sleep*

TODAY. I ENJOYED KNOWING YOU MORE
i love the song ' to the ends of the earth ' send me whoever has =(

00:30

Friday, December 01, 2006

O's next year, im getting scared just thinking of it. anyway, tomorrow's service YAY! if i were to live without service, i'll never get on with life. cos i need God. yesyesyes. tomorrow we're having the 1026 meeting! YES, the last time we met was in DECEMBER LA. last year. so now we're meeting yet again. so im glad. i'll still make it to service. but just can't queue with my members.
ben's flying off tomorrow, so that's so sad. we were gonna do something nice to some ppl. and i gotta wait for nxt week till he comes back. well, the week will fly by as fast as usual. that's how my holidays are ending. FAST, which i don't like. because from what i hear, friends are preparing for nxt year's O levels so soon, and wow, im still playing, laughing, doodling off. and not even preparing at all. i wanted to study from 17th november - 17th december. monday - friday 5 hours to study. and what did i end up with, NOTHING. oh manz..
ah well.

22:28

yay, today i woke up and collected my pay, the good pay that i got for my easy work. :D anyway, dear lovely dominic made me wake up at 8:30 to meet him for breakfast so i can collect my pay from him, and hah, i ate $3 worth of char kuay tiao and then another prata, gosh. the flabs. and then i went home to sleep somemore, then woke up at 1pm and showered and left the house. i took 154 from the bus stop near my house (GOSH I WAITED SO LONG, STUPID BUS) you know there are sometimes when you don't want the bus, and it comes, and when you want it, it takes ages! that's so sad. well, that happened to me. poor me yeah. then 154 was about 45 mins - 1 hour ride to boon lay from my place. and i had fun in the bus. i think sitting in the bus is better than the train. i don't know why, but the feeling is much better. more things to see and there was this cuuuute girl hahahaha. aw, nono it's just 1 look, don't worry. :D well, then we had cell group. it was rather good, ushering was fun. but i really wished there was prayer intercession and laying of hands, i would really want to overcome my fear of catching people. because when matthew asked justine, brandon and i to help him in catching, i was really scaring myself throughout cell. then after that, went for dinner. (DUCKRICE;D) then talked talked talked, bryan's really funny i can say. he really cracks me, and there was this dead dragonfly that we thought would drop into our food haha. then after that we went to toapayoh, ben, christian, melissa and i. but christian couldn't stay. nevermind, next time. then mel beat ben in table soccer hahahah, it was funny. mel said she'll post about it, so we shall wait for her to post about it and see how she phrases it. stay tuned for funny things. then i waited for mel's bus, then i went home. yet again, the overhead bridge was empty again, with no one, so i started singing out loud the worship song ' From The Inside Out '. I love the bridge cos always when i go home after cell/service i'll sing there, because not many people get off at the bus stop. reached home and now im getting tired! so i shall sleep soon. toodles.

make life awesome once again.

00:30

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

went to my cousin's house on monday, then slacked the whole day, did nothing but watched my cousin play maple. i mean ok, no offence, but it's rather silly spending $120 on maple stuff. i mean, it's giving real money for fake money, money which can never return unless you sell the account, which my cousins won't do because they're so addicted to the game. awesome. well, they'll come to light one day when they've finally known that they're spending wasted money on these things. *phew i didn't get addicted the the game. anyway, i went for prayer meeting on tuesday, and i missed my work, woke up too late. so the prayer meeting was good! really good, the lights were turned off when we were praying and worshipping and can really feel the prescence, it made me feel happy again even though my eye hurt. i had this infection (according to shaun) which was really bad, but HEY prayer works wonders yet again. this morning when i got up, it didn't hurt, i went to the bathroom to check and it was healed. i raised my hands and had the face of ' YES ' that kind and yeah, if you can picture me doing that. hahahaha. was really happy and i went to visit my grandma about 8:30am. i took the bus from the wrong side and it went one big round haha. in the end, went to the market to eat, GOOD PRAWN MEE. and then went shopping, helped her carry her stuff back to her home, then said goodbye to her and went for biblestudy. SHE'S SO NICE, SHE GAVE ME $25 :'). bs was good, with yah lan. divine healings wow. and demon deliverance, wow the stories were so good. really got me fired up haha, but i need training to deliver ppl! hahaha. hm my angel keeps telling me my blog sucks because she can't read but haha, i don't care. because i knoooo it's nice. and this one's to her :YES IM ALWAYS NICE LA hahahaha, anyway, yeah that's all i wanna say. probably because im too angry at the operator logo that can't come off!
CIAO.

GOD GOD, YOU ARE SO TANGIBLE.

22:43

Sunday, November 26, 2006

today, as usual i got up early and went to queue early. im disappointed in myself as i didn't get the seats i thought i'd get and the seats i wanted. well, i was queuing in the morning, unfortunately john couldn't come early, so i was lonely =( hahaha, no la, time flew by as i was getting angry over this irritating guy. who kept pushing the barricade so that it hit me, and i push it back, he pushes it again so it hits me AGAIN and again. then the girl accidentally hit my guitar and it dropped. my heart dropped as well but i forgave her (:D) then the guy talked and the way he talked hinted that he was talking about me, as they were talking softly and they THOUGHT i was listening to my mp3 but my mp3 had no battery and i was just acting cool! yeah!! ;D so yeah, i thought they were talking about my guitar dropping and being irritating. well the first time that guy came and sat behind me, ONE LOOK AND I KNEW HE WAS IRRITATING la can! pfft. so TODAY TODAY HAHAHAHA. service was great, felt tired though, after that mock. it was fun! my worship lead wasn't really up to what i expected myself to do, but yeah, i think it was quite ok. can't believe i mixed up my words, must be cos im nervous haha. maybe cos it was my own cell group leader evaluating me, that's why haha. sister cuen cuen is super cute la can, as in, respected cute. she kept asking us to be ' naughty members ' to do things not supposed to do in cell and make the person in charge respond to it. and HAHA pretended to sleep during phua's sermon and he was FIERCE in waking me up, so funny.

and yes, about service, pastor phil pringle talked more about prayer and wow, it really plays a big part in what i do. so it's not just doing, but praying in the supernatural works wonders as well. IT HAPPENED. i had a headache, fever, cough and sore throat yesterday and before i slept i prayed for healing, and whoa, i really got healed the next morning, felt really good. :D God works wonders oh yeah!

20:01

Saturday, November 25, 2006

if there wasn't service today, i'd think this day was bad. my headache and cough were really getting to me, i couldn't stand it. hurt so bad. hope i'll get well tomorrow. manz, i need sleep or else i'll faint. i don't know whether to get my guitar signed or not, but i think it'll be not. because it'll look weird. shucks. well, i've got nothing much to say, because im wanting my bed. so good night!

Without YOU, there wouldn't be a ME. †

23:28

TODAY HAD A MATHS TEST. ew. hahahaha, donno how i did, but nevermind that. it's past. so.. i went home and slept slept slept till late, ate dinner then sleep somemore. then now im awake and im REALLY AWAKE. :D so i shall just go do something.

00:59

Thursday, November 23, 2006

today, was awesome. we had cell group which was awesome then we had shake up the love. it's mocktail competition, cocktails with no alcohol. so we all made some weird drinks haha. florence and melissa's tasted really sour. michelle and melanie's was nicely done, with whipped cream. oh wow, phua and i really ate a lot of the whipped cream. christian and lewis's was nice. had those hard hard sweets that were really tasty. and ben's and mine was just 7up and ice-cream. tasted good tho. mel and mich won 1st, then mel and florence won 2nd. poor us hahahaha. oh well, i forgot what was the prize. im not complaining because im watching my prison break, and it just finished. im happy ;D. for the first few days of the week i stayed at my cousin's house. im so traumatised now because my cousin kept molesting me. tsktsktsk.. people should learn how to be nice sometimes. hahaha, she played final fantasy 9, which made me really want to play now. but then my dad already gave away the ps1. so maybe i'll play 10. which isn't really that good. hahahaha. so now im gonna go back to guitaring BYEBYE

22:59

Monday, November 20, 2006

heh heh, finally got a skin that i liked, and i did it myself. i had to draw the cross myself too -.- hope it's to your liking as well. hmm, what did i do today, oh yeah, i slept till 4pm. and found that i was late for my guitar class. and so, i showered, got changed and rushed down. zz i reached there like, about 10 mins late. and then we got chairs and tables and sat down. haha, i met leonard, de you and guang ren there. serving at the dialect church. so we. me rico nicholas stuart and joshua sat down and started practising. well, stuart and joshua are our teachers ahhaha. so we played. and i agree with what rico said. it's quite hard to play under watching eyes. when we play in the prescence of each other it's all fine and sounds good. but in the prescence of the people who're teaching us. wah, very weird, we sorta always mix up and play wrongly and get nervous. hahahha, we're always told not to be nervous but can't help it! then after that we went to eat dinner!!! yeah, my favourite. duck rice, it's unhealthy but so nice la can. the hands especially the HANDS. hahahah he doesn't wear gloves or anything but uses his bare hands, the hands he uses to dig his nose, pick up things and take money. hahahha to touch to duck and put on the rice. oh man. but haha how many months of eating it and i never got sick. it's so nice, pity it's at boon lay, so far, or else i might just eat it everyday. i was so hungry i also ordered po piah. heh heh, and ate 2 and a half tutu kueh. those white things with peanut fillings. then i went home. and wow, i spent almost 2 hours doing my skin, including drawing of my cross and all. and browsing through other nice blogs getting inspiration. well im going to go to bed. will be staying at my cousin's house till thursday i think. it'll be fun. hahahah OH YEAH i was supposed to blog about this.

after you. [] says:
girls need to think think think then hide
after you. [] says:
but we just think and hide
after you. [] says:
girls need to think 3 times more than us!
after you. [] says:
hahahahah ;D

haha, i was talking to jerome and we came on this topic. it was based on something. but i forgot what we were talking about. but it's funny the way i phrased it. hahahah, but oh well. just to let you all look at my wonderfully phrased phrase. don't be jealous, i could teach you a thing or two someday. but for now, i can hear my bed calling me. poor bed. and im gonna go to bed.

dear God. i'll never repeat my thinking. ever.

03:00

Sunday, November 19, 2006

haha, today's service was good. well, i wanna blog about yesterday. hahaha, i was at my cousin's house, and with about 20 mins of talking i finally coaxed my dad into letting me stay. ;D so around 3am we went to get chips from 7-11. then watched species. then played games. SOPHIA is nuts la, play until early morning. songjie the usual weird weird snoring. hah i fell asleep, then reached home, got ready to go for service. nxt week pastor phil pringle! woohoo. after service, went to matthew's house for a barbeque, was fun. tried to sabo shaun cos it's his birthday soon, but then he ran away, SOMEMORE RAN HOME. tsk. then went back home with j wong, ben chew and amelia. was kinda funny. anyway, today i learnt this cool thing:

REINFORCE IT, AND IT'LL STRENGTHEN.

00:35

Friday, November 17, 2006

the LANGUAGE opens us to another world! yes and amen to that. carol talked about tongues this afternoon during our combined cell meeting, and wow. it was cool. her testimony is always spoken but never tired of. because it's so wow la. tomorrow i've got a test and i've got 2 minds on whether i should go. i never really thought that tests would do us good, because it sort of doesn't test our knowledge. they should make a machine, and see if we had absorbed our things that we learnt in class. reason why i don't think tests are good because my friend, who never really listened in class, got really good results for doing his usual last-minute studying. which is like, studying 2 days before the exam. i wonder how he does it. anyway. tomorrow my cg is going to orchard to get a present for someone. and i was wondering if i should go. because if i do. i'll waste precious time because my school ends at 10am and then i have much much much time before it's 3:30. and i don't want to go home because if i do i'll fall asleep at home. either that, or i'll just slack around and do absolutely NOTHING! bleh. i can't wait for service. it's gonna be great great great. im finally being able to pay my pledge for the month because i've gotten my pay =D. this is a step of faith im taking, and im sure that many other chances would come for me. oh i feel like eating supper now but im just so lazy to whip something up for myself. so i'll just go to bed soon and watch my lovely tv: JOAN OF ARCADIA. it's a nice show! it's about this girl who can talk to God and wow, it's just an ordinary girl. what's more, God tells her to do things and in the beginning she can see that it's wrong and things are going bad. but short term denial, long term gain. in the end, she'll know that good things happened and even lives are saved. it's kinda chim and need to listen to the story then you'll get it. it's a really good show. i won't miss it tonight. YOU KNOW WHAT. i missed 30 mins of prison break, how saddening. i'm really really depressed. hais, but i still gt to watch half, should be contented with that.
hah, we had games, which was really fun. after cell, we bought food from the food court, bleah, lousy + expensive food. then ate, then went to play games. the people who did forfeit: John, Melanie, Jerome, Zechary. haha, john and mel did a cool 70's dance. which me, de you and jerome could NOT sing a tune to hahaha. then jerome and zec did collin raye's "love me" which was nice, but not emotional enough. no LOVE man. hahaha. okay, that's all for today, im tired. so sleep is in order! GOOD NIGHT


today, You were really tangible.

01:43

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

WORK ROCKS.
HAH, my 2nd day of work rocks la. yesterday i worked like 2 and a half hours, and today dominic and i completed in 1 hour =) HAH, so im paid for 8 hours of work but i completed in 3hrs. so THAT'S WHAT IM GONNA THANK GOD FOR. multiplying my time, and giving me CHARM ahahhaa to be able to give out my flyers fast. i'm surprised at how fast it was la, it was like flying in all sorts of directions because the flow and traffic of people was a lot! anyway, working is fun, better than my previous flyer giving experiences. i hope i get more chances. i might ask for more jobs! ;D mwahahha. eh, tomorrow's cell group and there's something going on. O_o i can't wait for tomorrow to happen! i feel it'll be great.TOMORROW OH TOMORROW COME FASTER. well im bored and i don't know what to write already, so i'll just go off BYEBYE.

21:11

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

oh today was my first day of work. i must say it was fun and easy easy! but i mustn't get complacent. hope tomorrow will be all good and well again. wow, i was surprised at how FAST giving out of flyers was. i had 4 hours to complete my stack for today and in 2 hours i completed my stack and a bit of tomorrow's so maybe tomorrow i'll end up doing faster. so.. i had 2 hours of doing nothing so i walked around to watch ice-skating. dominic left so early. that bugger, pangseh me for lan gaming. HAH. i hope tomorrow i'll wake up early again, so i can at least have breakfast with dominic. then we have to travel to jurong east AGAIN. so far =( i went to that arcade to dance again, im getting addicted to it, hope i'll stop. oh yeah, i was forced to go back to school to take the stuff that lewis bought for the cell. ;D val's shades are nice, and we've got gumgumgumgum. i hope lewis'll be free tomorrow heh, so we can go dancing. HE ALWAYS SAYS HE CAN'T DANCE AND HE TOTALLY OWNED ME LA CAN. tsktsk. well, cell group's on thursday, can't wait for that to come, and saturday's SERVICE AGAIN yay.I SHALL BLOG AGAIN TMR. I HOPE. today was fun. work isn't really that hard, well maybe it's just flyers that aren't that hard. i wanna try harder things. at least life isn't as boring as it was before. i always loved holidays cos there's no school, but i dreaded holidays cos there's no school. yeah, self-contradictory BUT IT'S TRUE LA. hope school starts soon. but then again, O levels are coming nearer and nearer and NEARER. i'm scared and confident at the same time. but i don't know if i can really cope up with my studies. i hope i will. oh wait, i will. i've got God.HEH HEH HEH. i shall study hard when the time comes. oh oh and i still haven't gotten the hang of refuge intro, it sounds kinda wrong.. but it might be right, i don't really know!oh and if you wanna see melissa's forfeit, it's on michelle's blog AHHA funny i must say. Click HERE for michelle's blog

OH WELL. LET TMR WORRY ABOUT ITSELF

23:29

Monday, November 13, 2006

yay, it's at 4pm and my dad's making me breakfast!
TOAST, BEANS AND SCRAMBLED EGGS. I love my dad, don't you love him too?

15:48

Sunday, November 12, 2006

HAH, should see melissa today when she was doing games. i mean before it started. she was so jumpy HAHAH. well me too. first time wad. anyway, IT WAS FUN AND I WANNA DO IT AGAIN.
service was AWESOME LA CAN. ben didn't wanna come =l sick. haiyo, so waste, he really missed a lot. christian came :D
which was good. anyway, i've got a maths and i know it's kinda early but i need my bed. night.

GOD GOD FAITH IS NEEDED TO PLEASE YOU
Hebrews 11:6 - But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for those who come to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him

20:54

Friday, November 10, 2006

HEHE SERVICE TOMORROW *i forgot to add this in!* =D

23:36

eh what sia, my mum's really nagging me until i really buay ta han. she's like ' COME SEE WHAT CLOTHES YOU DON'T WANT, THROW AWAY ' what, why must throw clothes away.
so i tell her first in a nice tone ' wait, i finish game ' THEN AFTER LIKE 30 MINS SHE COMES BACK AND SCREAMS INTO MY EAR. so i scream back. sometimes i wish she'd use a nicer tone to talk to me because i really cannot stand people who scream or shout at me when i talk nicely.
it's so irritating and makes people's blood boil la can. somemore it's constant nagging. so it's shouting x1000 which makes it worse! =( so now. im tired. today was fun. went to jerome's house. played guitar. after that, went to kovan there to eat. SO PIAN YI (cheap) SO HAO CHI (nice to eat). ahahaha, um, mixed vege rice. jerome and zec ate the ' never-EVER-filling ' chicken rice. me and phua had JIA FAN (add rice) and ADD MORE PLS AUNTIE. hahaha. which was only $2.70 per plate. and chicken rice is $3. RIPOFF! haha. anywa, enjoyed myself today. i saw sherwyn dance. but he still lost to me ;)
MUST COME DANCING WITH ME ONE DAY K


GOD, MY STRENGTH, CALM MY ANGER.

23:27

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

today. i practised guitar for crazy. ;D but it was fun! after that i bought new shoes and put on my disgusting laces. you'll see it when you see me. hah.
TOMORROW'S CELL GROUP. *excited. bye

22:59

ANGRY CAN?

00:07

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

today is dao day. everyone is like, daoing everyone la, i wonder why. sadly. anyway, i just want to talk about today. today was quite fun and today is also my typo day. i keep making mistakes. i won't be surprised if i see a mistake in this post.
today:
7:30am - 1:30pm: SLEEP
1:30pm - 5:45pm: SLEEP
5:45pm - 6:30pm: QT
6:30pm - 8:30pm: SLEEP SOMEMORE
wah, today is really ultimate sleeping for me la. plus im fasting 24 hrs for my personal reason.tonight, i doubt i'll get rest, and i'll starve till i die =( well not die, but just heh heh, kidding.
TODAY IS DAO DAY, YES =(

22:40

Monday, November 06, 2006

today. was gs test day. we did the gs test, and things were funny. i don't know why but we just laughed on and on, ben, christian and i. after that we went to walk around orchard, boring place. went to far east plaza to eat some place called ' chippy ' the calamari there is superb. well, i've eaten better ones but that one is long and chewable. i wanna eat it again! well after that, i went to meet my dad at his hotel where he works. SAD TO SAY, he made me wait for half an hour before i could meet him. ben and jerry. christian went to christian's house for prayer. so i was left there ALL ALONE. but im glad because my dad got my a songbook, as in, those guitar song books. millions of songs but yet cost so little. im gonna learn some :D and oh oh, im so tired of playing warcraft because everyone leaves in the middle of the game and thus, it makes it UN-FUN. shucks. so now im gonna keep on playing the intro of ' from the inside out ' manzz it so rocks la can. it's so addictive. i can't stop playing it. unless it's time to keep my guitar: you know when when the mommy comes out nagging and screaming and shouting in the ' tired ' look. it's really freaking, especially my mum, because her eyes are so small, it looks like she's sleepwalking. so it's rather scary. :D TONIGHT THERE'S JOAN OF ARCADIA YAY. 2:30am everyone must watch ok. TMR MUST CUT HAIR! it's looking really untidy and bushy now. =(


BYEBYE.
GOD OH GOD, TAKE A HOLD OF ME.

22:29

TODAY WAS FUN.
guitar class totally rockz manz.
BEN AND CHRISTIAN did dialect church
i sosososo wanted to go.
then i fell asleep on the bus.
then went to watch Win study. but fell asleep anyway.
NOW IM HOME AND IM GOING TO BED
BECOZ IVE GOT A MATHS TMR
bye.


GOD GOD GOD I LOVE YOU.

00:04

Friday, November 03, 2006

haha, today was really funny, and hilarious. i had chemistry in the morning. actually, i didn't want to go because my beauty sleep is more important. but i still went. and good thing i did. I FINALLY absorbed everything she taught. and im sure of everything. haha, christian's back to his funny self, and i must say, today was really funny. we kept doing this ' Ya ' in a high pitch voice, that's SUPER ANNOYING and SUPER IRRITATING. our principal uses it a lot and haha, we're just doing it for fun, but it really annoyed other people. and our chemistry teacher was thinking wrong things and assumed we thought them =( we're such innocent little boys, who were influenced by our bad old male teachers. (MR CHAN AHEM) hahaha. hoo ha, i came home to take a nap. (yay) and then i was on the guitar. oh manz, the song still is so annointed. i can't stop playing it. it's a must must must.
it was weird during chemistry because i drifted off for a moment and was thinking of the song ' I've got a dream ' I'm really hoping they have it for praise during service again. it's such a nice song and lots of meaning. there are actions as well. i love the first line of the chorus, this is how it goes ' AIN'T NO GIANT, GONNA WALK ON MY LAND ' wooo, sounds like i can subdue it. mwahhaha. well, nothing is impossible with God, because that's my heavenly father, like it or not
now's already mid-afternoon, and im getting TIRED again =( but i'm going for dinner soon, so i mustn't sleep, or else it'll spoil my appetite. DID YOU KNOW I LOVED FOOD ;D/ well now you know. i love food. i must eat eat eat. haha, there was once where i missed dinner and i got really sad, so i woke up and had supper, which was as much a serving as dinner -.-' and i gained 1 kilo after that! haha.


LIFE IS BETTER WITH YOU, DEAR GOD.

16:13

today was cell group meeting day! was really great, val shared about arise and build. and the things i need to do is:
1. Have Passion
2. To Sacrifice
3. Have Faith
phua's really good in his guitaring. I WILL BE LIKE THAT AND BETTER.
getting better and better each day! =)
im really happy and contented with what i have, but i want more. more. more.
and saturday's coming nearer. im so glad.

life is DEFINITELY better. dear God <3

00:12

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

today i slept at 7am. and then i woke up at 8am to go for chemistry. BUT WHOOOHOO NO CHEM LESSON! thank God, man. then again, we don't get to study. i think it's really a bad part on mdm tan, because she just cancelled it just like that, and the people that went from home early in the morning had to go home. poor them. especially tak wah, he was really depressed. he loves chemistry (and maybe mdm tan as well) haha. well, after that i went to minds cafe. it was really funny when we payed up. HOHOHO. and takwah just told me jacinta lim taking us for chemistry tomorrow NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *depressed*. oh, and im very nice. so to say, i want to thank my angel for sending me the song ' Still ' by Hillsong =) because she's nice? hahahahha.
OKAY GOOD NIGHT.

Lord of my Life.

23:53

wow today, was just an ordinary day, but i did an extraordinary thing.
i slept for more than 14 hours. my highest record was only 12 last time.
it was really cool. i kept dreaming nice things, so i was relunctant to get up.
they were so sweet, so sweet so sweet till i woke up and forgot what i dreamt of.
how depressing. AND i've got chemistry tomorrow. well, on the bright side.
im going to mindscafe after that for some games. i hope i can be able to bring a few
friends along so it'll be more rowdy and happy. because we're a bunch of happy people.
and i can play forgiven, omigosh, im so glad. and happy that i can. and im improving.
cell group guitarist here i come. (soon) dad and i went to eat dinner around 7? because
he was watching matrix. he's enjoying his last few days of on leave. that's why he's playing
and watching like mad. poor him. i bet he's jealous i've got a 2 month break :D okayokay
i shouldn't be so mean. but there you have it, it's the end of year holidays yay, and o levels
are next year, boo. oh yes, we went to eat, and our favourite food didn't open. SO WE HAD
TO EAT THIS ROTTEN SATAY. THE RICE WAS HARD AND UN-NICE. not the soggy
kind i loved. then we wanted to eat tau huay. AND GUESS WHAT, NO MORE HOT ONES
today wasn't our day for food. so, feeling dejected, we went home to play games. heh heh.
so now here i am, blogging on this weird blog of mine. and im going to sleep soon
because i've got chemistry at about 8am and wow, im still awake, what a joke.
i hope i'll be able to stay awake during chemistry. i mean, we're doing it in school days
and i feel it's so boring i could drop my head off, and they still wanna do it during the holidays
WELL, if it's maths i'd love to. but CHEMISTRY!!!! nightmare T.T

okay think i should go off now. bed needs me.
niTEZZZ.

My life is better with You, my God.

04:06

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

hahaha, flying like swans? took this before guitar lessons. ;)
IT'S ALL AMELIA'S FAULT HAHA.
she made us SLIIIIDE. -.-

02:06

Monday, October 30, 2006

hello, i forgot to post about yesterday! oh well, i'll do it now. right now.
you see, i couldn't make it for saturday's service :( so i had to go for sunday's.
heh, it was quite a powerpack-funfilled-day. because i had
1) Service
2) Prayer Meeting
3) Guitar Lessons <---- YEAH!!
And so, service was great, there's this song called ' forgiven ' and i HAVE IT! mwahahhaha.
thanks to wishbear. Pastor talked about loads of great stuff and they're really necessary to lead an awesome life!
the part about arise and build got a lot of people on fire to give, especially me. i was like 'WOAH'
even if i wasn't a christian, the phrase ' give and it shall be given back to you ' is always true.
because everytime i buy people drink, someone wants to buy me food. and since they're willing
to buy me food, what else can i do? it's really rude to say no right? =P
ooh today was kinda fun too. after a maths remedial (groan) went to jiayi's house to play basketball, well not really his house, but at sengkang community centre.
awesome, we lost 5 games, and won only 1. well what to do, when there's serious competition, and we're like, just playing for fun only lor. then they so rough push push. aiyo. but nevertheless
it was fun, because jiayi was doing all those stupid things when the girls came. and heh heh, can see his eyes keep darting towards them. ;) mwahahahahaha. YUP THAT'S TODAY. and yesterday.

GOD, MY LIFE IS INCOMPLETE WITHOUT YOU!

19:00

Saturday, October 28, 2006

today was fun and exciting.
even though i couldn't go to church =(
celebrated my friend's birthday anyways.
we danced like crazy on and on and on at this arcade, and spent over 15 bucks.
then this girl came over and owned us. hahahah.
my friend wanted to be a bachelor but i wanted him to have a girlfriend.
because they kinda looked alike. so i thought he and she were suitable!
:D anyway, back to the dancing. well my friend and the girl competed.
AND MY FRIEND GOT OWNED, SO BADLY.
her grade was like, A, and my friend was a C. (ownage)
oh well nick, you still had fun today. we wanted to cake him (smash cake on him) because it's kinda like a tradition, every year he gets caked on his birthday because we're such evil and inconsiderate juniors. but then again, we bought him a hat and a new t-shirt for his birthday so he could change. but then i was being a nice guy once again and i didn't wanna cake him, so i called off the buying of the cake. then after that nick came over to my place to play a bit of guitar and we recorded ' i could sing of Your love forever ' and ' shout to the Lord ' it was so good.
MY GOOD GUITAR SKILLS + HIS SINGING SKILLS = GREAT RECORDING. so yeah, wish you all could hear it BUT TOO BAD! i wanna go back and practice dancing again, first time i spend so much money but it was fun because everytime we miss one, we just laugh non stop and we end up losing the whole round, but every 40c there's 4 rounds, means 10c for 1 round. we went to this cheap 20c arcade =) where games were only 20c - 50c. and you can tell, 15 bucks is a lot of gaming. hahahaha. well the girl that owned my friend probably frequent there, so she knew it well, but we're gonna practise hard on it after nick's o levels so we can challenge her again and beat her flat! (just you wait)

heh heh, so now, im here typing and blogging and updating my blog so other people can read and know that dancing is fun and those who're scared don't need to be scared, just try, because when you laugh at yourself, that's the only fun you ever get, because when ppl laugh at you, it's no fun.


MY LIFE IS BETTER WITH YOU, MY GOD. <3

signing off, JonAthan

23:27

IT'S 5:01 AM.
I'm gonna stay up till there's daylight! ;D

05:09

Hello, today was a fruitful day!
I caught up on my sleep and i am really glad to tell you my eyes are officially white again!
Anyway, then i woke up and went over to rico's house. (MAN IT'S SUPER FAR)
but we really had a good time, jammed like nobody's business. so loud so loud.
guess what, we made a new song! :D title is ' MY STRENGTH ' The lyrics are before this post.
anyway, the tune is really catchy and nice, and lots of pauses, because we're just so cool.
you should listen to it one day. cos it's awesome! other than that, we also played lots
of worship and praises from guitar4christ and yeah, we had a fun time. i came home around
10 and i finished bible reading! yay. congrats me. however, as i've mentioned, i can't make
it for saturday's service as well. which is depressing, because it's much more fun to
go with my cell group members! however, i won't mind going on sunday alone because i'd
rather not wake any of them up, or trouble them. they need beauty rest to get their
complextions like mine. so then, im so excited that andrew naylor and david holmes
are coming back and they're playing for us in service and prayer meeting. wooo i'm so
blown away by their pro-ness. i'm still learning! at the moment, im waiting for joan of arcadia
to start, i think it starts at 3:30. but nevertheless i'll wait. it's such a nice show. and wow
if God was really walking around and being a stranger to me, and asking me things
or let's say testing me to see if i was right. i'd really like that. because with God
ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE YEAH! and if i had God next to me, i could get my parents'
saved, because they're really not responding. my mum almost came! but in the end she didn't
want to. how sad.


everyday is much more lively and fulfilling with you, my God.
MY STRENGTH!

03:01

MY STRENGTH
Verse 1:

MY FAILURES AND SITUATIONS
THEY TRY TO PUT ME DOWN
YOU ARE THE STRENGTH OF MY LIFE
WITH YOU I FEEL SO STRONG
WHEN I AM IN TIMES
OF TROUBLES AND OF SADNESS
YOU ARE THE LIGHT OF MY LIFE
SO I CAN SEE

Chorus:

(And) YOU ARE THE STRENGTH OF MY HEART
AND YOU ARE THE HOPE OF MY LIFE
AND FOREVER MORE
FOREVER MORE
I WILL SING
MY PRAISES TO YOU

Verse 2:

WHEN I FEEL LOST AND CONFUSED
UNLOVED AND UNWANTED
YOU ARE MY SALVATION
WITH YOU A SECOND CHANCE
NO WEAPON SHALL PROSPER
TO WEAKEN TO BREAK ME
YOU ARE MY DELIVERER
AND YOU ARE HERE WITH ME

Bridge:

YOU ARE MY STRENGTH
AND YOU ARE MY HOPE

03:00

Thursday, October 26, 2006

hello, i redid my blogskin, NICE RIGHT! i think it should be on blogskin.com. it's just the best and the nicest ever! (because i'm there) hahaha, it's my cell group! but then there's no val! because she went for a meeting!! so that's just us. we were supposed to stretch out our legs and hands, but the photographer, took too fast, so only i did it. (how malu)
anyway, it's so great to see that our cell group is getting more and more new friends and i really want to reach out as well! but on that fateful day of the last week of school the friends whom i prayed for and wanted to bring didn't come to school. (coincidental?) so i didn't get to invite any!
how simply depressing. bright side, i've got a new guitar and i'm really playing my heart out!
OH OH, I'VE GOT LESSONS THIS SUNDAY AFTER PRAYER MEETING. guitar lessons! *wink.
the great thing about it is that after i learn, and practice more, i really want to be a cell group guitarist! and bring the prescence of God wherever i go, when i play. it'll be really so super cool to do so.
1. serve God
2. serve Believers
3. serve Unbelievers
Three things for ministry!
I will fulfill all 3 and become a security!! (like my dear brother Matthew)
I'm still not sure about music ministry, haha phua seems disappointed, but i'll pray over it and see what answer i get okay? =)
wow, today at mind's cafe was really fun, and so fulfilling...
1. CELL GROUP WAS GREAT
2. SERMON WAS GREAT
3. GAMES WERE GREAT (we won 3rd prize)
4. MAKING FUN OF GEKSHAN WAS FUN TOO.
sad thing though, i most probably can't go for saturday service with my cell group members =(
have to meet the principal with parents and who knows how long would it be.
what's more, my parents might not let me out after that.. WELL EVERYDAY IS A DAY TO PRAISE GOD. so sunday it shall be! after that there's prayer meeting and not to mention, my guitar lessons ^^



life is really better with You, my God. †

23:58

Thursday, October 12, 2006

HELLO im back to update again. miracle huh?
anyway, im really really happy with myself!
i've lost a total of 17 kg ever since. i've starved, i've run, i've dont sports. and yay i succeeded. today was really interesting. i met carol and wow, it was really great. i took as much knowledge i could from her because it's really a rare tiem when i could meet carol 1 to 1 and talk to her and fellowship. it's so great to do so. JEALOUS? =D anyway, she talked to me about heaven, and how it'd be like. im really excited now. learnt a lot from carol. she's so annointed. and i just finished talking to keewee (MY BOYFRIEND) hahahah! been a long time since we did. shucks man, it's not fun to argue with my mum and i just did. made the day so sad.. but well, that's so bad lar.
I'LL DO IT ANOTHER TIME
IM BORED. bye! nights.

02:55

Friday, September 29, 2006

on the brightside of breaking my guitar, my cousin songwei gave me his.
AH BLESSING! but i am so sad i broke my dad's.. he's really depressed and the fact he didn't scold me makes me feel worse! oh well.
TODAY I PLAYED BASKETBALL. and i didn't study! i will study and do well.
do my exam by faith. :D well, today was rather okay. HA! i beat songwei's sch's bball team captain! im so happy. well. they're all so dao. my cousin seems so flirt nowadays hahaha. :D
but oh well, that's him. i shall not interfere. AS LONG AS IM NICE RIGHT?
heh heh. and now im blogging and being bored. phua's gonna re-string my guitar on monday!
hooray. WELL today i wanted to do it and this shop at causeway point
sold some strings at $12.90 WHAT THE HLDWLGJ?? so expensive! nevermind. + there's no re-stringing. so sad. i was really pai seh when i said ' nevermind thanks ' and she put it back hahaha. well serve them right! so expensive, crazy.

NEW GUITAR YAY.

23:23

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

my
guitar
broke.
i am
depressed.

20:05

Sunday, September 24, 2006

heh, today i queued at 7am. it was quite fun. although i was alone, i had my dear sisterharmony(guitar) with me and i played while waiting, and WHOA everyone listened! so cool :D! but even though i queued so early, i only got the 9th row. but at least we're more 'centre' than before. hmm, im sad/angry for some particular reason, but i just CAN'T FIGURE IT OUT. i keep putting on a happy front but then, it's just something's missing. i feel it, but can't tell what it is. i'm just so so so so so so lost. tonight, all will be solved. it will! AND YAY I FOUND THE SONG
I WANT TO SING UNTIL I AM LOST IN YOUR LOVE so cool, it's very nice.
and i can play it! (yay)
today was rather fun yet rather boring. haha played really lame games at long john silvers. and went around shopping, (only karen bought things though) we're all WINDOW-shopping !C:

21:11

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

i really loved the whole marriage series, but i'm also excited about next week.
last of all the marriage series. WHOA, this sunday, my self-proclaimed 'BEST SISTER IN THE WORLD' and i went to queue at 8am and YAY we got like, 3rd row seats! jealous? well, it's great to sit so near and FEEL THE ANNOINTING. and the POWER. woo, and pst Kong is so tall! he looked not very tall on the stage. maybe that was because we were sitting so far back! but WHOO. we were so NEAR him! one day i'll sit behind him. that'll be better. john's and val's information about cell group guitarists really made me more excited and more on fire for it to happen. annointing and to have a steady walk with God. if not, when i play, there's no prescence of God. imagine what it'd be like to have the WHOLE stadium cry when you play worship songs.
God touches lives and everyone gets saved. THAT'S SO COOL. i wanna do it!


ah, today's chemistry test was more or less a disaster. i thought i studied the right things, but the things that i didn't study came out, how undeniably 'fun'. but social studies was quite good. i wrote a lot of nonsense though, well not really nonsense, but it's out of my own general knowledge. ms chua was kind though, at the last 1o mins of the paper she let us have open book, which made everything easier and i added in another paragraph to round off my answer. i think i can at least pass and get a B? for chemistry i doubt so, either a fail or a C. i'll be happy to even get a C. i don't know if i should continue working hard but have no guarantee that i'll pass or just take combined science at the end of the year. but whatever will come will come. if at the end of the year i fail either one, i'll just take combined, but if i manage to scrape a B for each, i'll work harder! because if i can get a B for both, i can get an A with ample study and revision.


i really can't believe myself~ i'm becoming a good boy! 0=) i studied 5 hours today, and 5 hours yesterday, another 15 more hours and i reach my target of 25. but i told min rui i'd try 27, so i think i can make it another 2 hours. i really wanna be prepared for this upcoming exam and not fool around like i always do. i shall be prepared and take it on! yeah!


i feel so sad for my dad's fishes. when my dad puts in chemicals to wash the tank, i think he adds a bit too much, so the fish dies. now as i look at them, they're so sad, dying away. poor little things, if i fry and eat them it'll be better. than dying in an ugly tank! ohohoh, bob the builder is out, and it really looks entertaining. but i don't like bob, he's so ugly. i only like the yellow machine he rides on, it's so interesting and so cartoonish. i've got a soft spot for cartoons haha! i always tell myself that even if i'm 75 years old i'll still watch cartoons and enjoy it! because it's a great pasttime of mine and i'll never forget it. cartoons should be enjoyed by all ages. even those in the cinema, my parents think their a waste of time and money though. so sad! but i don't think i want to nowadays. wonder why.


sometimes i wonder if i'm losing it. in school, i either get too 'high' at the wrong time, or get too 'quiet' in the wrong time. i'm very quiet in class and when i'm out, i'm nuts. as in, i do things i wouldn't in class. don't know how come i can't control. i think it's because i've got an emotional disorder, it's just a suspicion, but i keep having thoughts that i'm crazy. well it might not or might be but i think i'm rather sane, just that i feel so down sometimes that i just wanna boost myself up and get happy again so i'll just do things that make myself happy. like when i make others laugh, i laugh as well, it's so nice to see smiles. especially at me! heartwarming. hm, every monday, i miss service, and everyday i miss my cell group. sometimes i wonder if... if life is really real at all. i mean what was i before i was alive? how come my fingers move when i want them to.. these questions are really un-answerable. and i was talking to phua today about when Jesus will return? Dominic was talking about when the four winds gather, tribulation will come. and seriously, i need more studying on that. i really don't know much about it and i want to learn more. i'm really really on fire!!!! and i want want want to learn more, i want want want to experience more of God and be a person can has the heart of worship. yes i will. watch me.

23:31

Monday, September 11, 2006

i can't get on msn so i'm blogging, YAY. it's some msn problem, i hope it's worldwide so i won't be so loner ): BYE.

22:30

Sunday, September 10, 2006

today, was a SPECTACULAR day man. i really cried today, pastor said to visualize my parents getting saved, so i visualized my parents kneeling and worshipping Jesus, and i just felt the touch of God and cried there and then. it was such a nice feeling, like He laid a hand on me. God is so amazing. i just claimed it! and yay, my parents will get saved!
im GONNA GO SLEEP *bed im coming* tomorrow service. BYE

00:55

Friday, September 01, 2006

hmms. i'm sosososososo stressed out. wanted to talk to phua yesterday but didn't get the chance, died before i could even talk. oh well, was tired!! anyways, i really am just angry over nothing, just NOTHING! i mean, how do you get angry over nothing! man it's crazy, but yes here i am angry at nothing. today's cell group was really really coooooooool-io we did 2 hours, and the prescence was really phooooooooeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaacool. i really loved it, that's why i'm posting about it now (: if not i won't post! i hate blogging, i keep forgetting to do so, that's why i hate it xD today was such a nice day. cell was really really fun and so powerful! the word was so nice. i really wish you could come and experience but OH WELL TOO BAD, NEXT TIME then. :D bye.

22:34

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

this is the 3rd time that i forgot to post! :D well, that just shows i don't really love blogs, but the problem is.. whenever i don't love blogs but i still post, i post like maybe 3 slides of it? i have sooo soo soo many things to pour out. wow. i really lovelovelovelove dr a.r bernard. his message was like WHOOOOA. so powerful. i like his ' a lie needs a truth to secure itself ' which i thought was SO TRUE! and my spirit man just jumped, i really think it's for me. this shall be my witness whenever i feel tempted to lie! yes, it shall be. i'm always lying to get away from reality, get away from punishment.. but a lie adds another lie to conceal it and OH MAN, it adds up to a whole lot of lies = bad! and YAY *happy. valerie, melissa and john bought me the happiness book. i really wanted it and YAY they got it for me, i want to thank them over and over again! and iiiiiiiiiiiiiii loooooooooooooooveeeeee theeeeeeemmmmmmmmm. you would too if you met them. yay. and i just had my prayer meeting and i'm home now and that's why i'm even blogging. if not i'd be asleep in my comfy bed thinking of what will happen during tomorrow's P.E. Come to think of it, cheong peng yong would just make me run again and the rest go canteen eat eat eat. and i'm so so so excited about monday or tuesday. heh heh, i'll write it here the next time i blog, which i think will be in a month's time. i've really got no patience in this blogging thing and lookie, i'm blogging right now. wow. :l


that day matthew was so nice, he shared his testimony about his results and i suddenly feel so optimistic about my studies, i really hope and pray and think that i will do well. :D and i would like to thank matthew for motivating me.. *touched. i mean, how do you study if no one motivates you? well some people can, but hey, i'm no born genius. i'm gonna work very very hard and achieve God's dream for me. Something about what Val said today really put me on fire right now. after this i'm gonna do my quiet time. and i really feel so on fire right now. i wanna do a longer one today yay. it's junwei's birthday soon and since he's my best friend i'm gonna do something special. i wonder what i can do.. i'd probably bring him out for lunch and pretend it's a normal day, but i think it'll be nice if i got him a cake. it'd really wow him out. i'm so nice O=) shucks and i'm starting to like someone again, better stopstopstopstopstop. and pray that i'll stop!!!!!!!! it always happens when you've become great buddies and you just have a crush. it's so UN-RIGHT timing lor! ohwell, we can't control our hormones but we can pray over it and make sure we stop :D yesyesyesyes. i really hope pastor a.r bernard comes back. :D
i'll blog again next time, when i'm free! =D

23:39

Thursday, July 27, 2006

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Monday, July 10, 2006


That's E412! cool right (:

21:37